First Time I Wrote Rhymes by Manhunter Lyrics
Hi there Dad
I gotta say I'm kinda sad
I'm also kinda glad
To finally get this off my chest
You were not the very best
You were never there
I Gotta get this outta my hair
You just don't care
But I don't give a fuck
In my house your name is muck
If I could, I'd take your memories and chuck em
Cuz you know what? Fuck’em
Think of you, a narcissist
So you won't be missed
You are also a bigot
Who hates me for being communist
Well I hate you for being stupid
I can't deal with this
You tell me I was missed
By I can see it in you eyes
You're telling lies
And that won't fly
It makes me want to cry
But I don't have the time
So I'll just say this
You are a bitch
I cannot deal with your shit
You make me sick
You tell me you love me dad
But you don't realize
I see through those lies
You say that you will come to my acts
Do you even know the facts?
I see you once a year
It makes me fear
Does my dad think I'm queer?
Why the fuck should I care?
I'm not, and he shouldn't even be here
Don't you think it kind of weird?
None of my friends know why I feared
Know that my father was there
That made me scared
Do you know how I faired?
With a therapist and a chair
Telling them how I feel
And it never seemed so real
All the hate that was building up
Was just sitting stuck
But when I talked the resentment came out
You could never put this flame out
You don't understand that I'm ashamed how
The father that raised me wasn't even mine
Having to explain it every single time
No, I love my dad with all my heart
But with my father I don't know where to start
What about abandonment?
The awful pain of going insane
When I think about someone leaving just like you do
I think of how I wasn't the only one, you did it to two
Me and my sister, well who knew?
Will you do it again?
When little sis hits 10?
Or what about disownment?
Why do it to any opponent?
Like my other sister for getting a tattoo gun
We are kids, who should be having fun
Not having a parent call you a piece of shit
When they throw a fit
What about me? I told you how I feel
How could I make it more real?
Am I next on the chopping block?
Cuz that would not be a shock
I gotta say I'm kinda sad
I'm also kinda glad
To finally get this off my chest
You were not the very best
You were never there
I Gotta get this outta my hair
You just don't care
But I don't give a fuck
In my house your name is muck
If I could, I'd take your memories and chuck em
Cuz you know what? Fuck’em
Think of you, a narcissist
So you won't be missed
You are also a bigot
Who hates me for being communist
Well I hate you for being stupid
I can't deal with this
You tell me I was missed
By I can see it in you eyes
You're telling lies
And that won't fly
It makes me want to cry
But I don't have the time
So I'll just say this
You are a bitch
I cannot deal with your shit
You make me sick
You tell me you love me dad
But you don't realize
I see through those lies
You say that you will come to my acts
Do you even know the facts?
I see you once a year
It makes me fear
Does my dad think I'm queer?
Why the fuck should I care?
I'm not, and he shouldn't even be here
Don't you think it kind of weird?
None of my friends know why I feared
Know that my father was there
That made me scared
Do you know how I faired?
With a therapist and a chair
Telling them how I feel
And it never seemed so real
All the hate that was building up
Was just sitting stuck
But when I talked the resentment came out
You could never put this flame out
You don't understand that I'm ashamed how
The father that raised me wasn't even mine
Having to explain it every single time
No, I love my dad with all my heart
But with my father I don't know where to start
What about abandonment?
The awful pain of going insane
When I think about someone leaving just like you do
I think of how I wasn't the only one, you did it to two
Me and my sister, well who knew?
Will you do it again?
When little sis hits 10?
Or what about disownment?
Why do it to any opponent?
Like my other sister for getting a tattoo gun
We are kids, who should be having fun
Not having a parent call you a piece of shit
When they throw a fit
What about me? I told you how I feel
How could I make it more real?
Am I next on the chopping block?
Cuz that would not be a shock