Testimony by Malcolm King (.mlclm) Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I go through a lot
Most of it is my fault
But God only gives me what I can handle
He's opened doors for me where there was no handles
Never in my life did I think I'd be happy again
Had stopped believing in happy endings after seventeen
I swear I died in my mind many times at seventeen
A thousand deaths but I'm not a coward
If anybody got a problem come at me straightforward
If it's beef you want you get it smoked
Eighteen years and I ain't never smoked
While my peers was taken before me
At fourteen that's when I first lost me
At a loss for words when I think of people that love me
Real friends are rare and hard to find
But they worth keeping when you find
Not a minute goes by without my baby crossing my mind
Many called this writing a talent from God
But I've written some unholy things and she really from God
Everything worth having comes from him
And I don't know how far I would have came
King of Kings I put that on his name
And sometimes I can't bear the title
Waves in my head like Tidal
I would carry the cross like I'm Nasir
All the way to Mars like NASA
Because I'm God's son and he loves me
My momma and daddy son they love me
I can't die yet while I got many people who want me alive
Suicide doors on the Lamb, I'll be living the life
Came a long way, this is my testimony
[Hook]
Sometimes I used to think that God don't like me
But I know you need tests to have testimonies
Went through it all now I'm singing, "praise him"
I didn't die when I died cause he lives in me
I had to give my testimony
[Verse 2]
Blood in my eyes when I couldn't sleep
Tryna keep the white in I need bleach
My heart froze and now it melted
I know many thing I neglected them
How I'm supposed to be down for you when I can't even save me?
And shout out all those who gave up on me
My baby never gave upon me
Even when I wasn't the easiest to deal with
There's a lotta shit she put up with that she ain't had to
I never wanna make you sad or cry too
And when you need me like I need you
I'll always be here for you if you let me
Nomatter how much you think it'll affect me
Never endure the pain when you think I can't take it
I got pain running through all these veins
God used you as an injection, an instrument
Take me to church and we could get married
We ain't gon be young forever but you was the highlight of my youth
808s and Heartbreaks was the foundation of my youth
And now I spit the truth in the booth
I thank the Lord he always looked after me like a shepherd
Psalm 23, even when I was on some truancy I ain't never skip school
These boys was rolling dank like it was cool
And some say it was all they knew
I'd kill for my niggas anyday no hesitation
But I'm grateful my niggas living right so I won't have to
If I do I'mma cleanse in your blood, Yahweh
I got many reasons to live and I'm dying to live, Yahweh
Keep Thembi on my side like Batman and Robbin
If she ever need sumn and I don't have I'm robbin'
Hope I don't end up in the box, I'm sorry
Father forgive all my sins and dark thoughts I'm sorry
[Hook]
Sometimes I used to think that God don't like me
But I know you need tests to have testimonies
Went through it all now I'm singing, "praise him"
I didn't die when I died cause he lives in me
I had to give my testimony
[Outro]
KOD, I killed my demons with a knife like Savage
I wasn't born to live life average
Thank you for these blessings and for the ones yet to come
All up in the church, singing Hallelujah
This the secret chord that David played to please the Lord
I go through a lot
Most of it is my fault
But God only gives me what I can handle
He's opened doors for me where there was no handles
Never in my life did I think I'd be happy again
Had stopped believing in happy endings after seventeen
I swear I died in my mind many times at seventeen
A thousand deaths but I'm not a coward
If anybody got a problem come at me straightforward
If it's beef you want you get it smoked
Eighteen years and I ain't never smoked
While my peers was taken before me
At fourteen that's when I first lost me
At a loss for words when I think of people that love me
Real friends are rare and hard to find
But they worth keeping when you find
Not a minute goes by without my baby crossing my mind
Many called this writing a talent from God
But I've written some unholy things and she really from God
Everything worth having comes from him
And I don't know how far I would have came
King of Kings I put that on his name
And sometimes I can't bear the title
Waves in my head like Tidal
I would carry the cross like I'm Nasir
All the way to Mars like NASA
Because I'm God's son and he loves me
My momma and daddy son they love me
I can't die yet while I got many people who want me alive
Suicide doors on the Lamb, I'll be living the life
Came a long way, this is my testimony
[Hook]
Sometimes I used to think that God don't like me
But I know you need tests to have testimonies
Went through it all now I'm singing, "praise him"
I didn't die when I died cause he lives in me
I had to give my testimony
[Verse 2]
Blood in my eyes when I couldn't sleep
Tryna keep the white in I need bleach
My heart froze and now it melted
I know many thing I neglected them
How I'm supposed to be down for you when I can't even save me?
And shout out all those who gave up on me
My baby never gave upon me
Even when I wasn't the easiest to deal with
There's a lotta shit she put up with that she ain't had to
I never wanna make you sad or cry too
And when you need me like I need you
I'll always be here for you if you let me
Nomatter how much you think it'll affect me
Never endure the pain when you think I can't take it
I got pain running through all these veins
God used you as an injection, an instrument
Take me to church and we could get married
We ain't gon be young forever but you was the highlight of my youth
808s and Heartbreaks was the foundation of my youth
And now I spit the truth in the booth
I thank the Lord he always looked after me like a shepherd
Psalm 23, even when I was on some truancy I ain't never skip school
These boys was rolling dank like it was cool
And some say it was all they knew
I'd kill for my niggas anyday no hesitation
But I'm grateful my niggas living right so I won't have to
If I do I'mma cleanse in your blood, Yahweh
I got many reasons to live and I'm dying to live, Yahweh
Keep Thembi on my side like Batman and Robbin
If she ever need sumn and I don't have I'm robbin'
Hope I don't end up in the box, I'm sorry
Father forgive all my sins and dark thoughts I'm sorry
[Hook]
Sometimes I used to think that God don't like me
But I know you need tests to have testimonies
Went through it all now I'm singing, "praise him"
I didn't die when I died cause he lives in me
I had to give my testimony
[Outro]
KOD, I killed my demons with a knife like Savage
I wasn't born to live life average
Thank you for these blessings and for the ones yet to come
All up in the church, singing Hallelujah
This the secret chord that David played to please the Lord