Deception by Macntaj Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Ever since I was a kid
I wanted nothing more
Than to put a smile on my father's face
And move my momma out
Of the bottom floor, of those projects
To a house somewhere on the lake
Somewhere far away with a picket fence
Before I threw it all away
Before I lost my innocence
When, when there was more to life than just trying to be accepted
How ignorant and naive one can be to depressed and, and
The hurt felt from being molested as a child
I was angry, I'll admit it I had resentment for a while
You, you never know how that shit affects you as a child
And not a saying in my heart is manifesting in this wild, young man
Not a soul in this cold
Now this cold world, just got a lot more colder
What is worse than a child with nothing to lose
Something to prove
My brother told me always do right
Then almost got life
I'm fucking confused
My gun and my pride
It's all that I got
And lettin' shit ride this how I was taught
So if I might die, it'll be for my block
Your nigga sixteen with some work in the soc
If they kill me, I die like a man
When I'm gone, I'ma live like a legend
And the literal homies banging after me wouldn't know my story
I won't be remembered
So pour out some liquor, something expensive
Stop by the house to check on my mom
Make her she good
Tell her you love her
Give her some money and take out the garbage
Load the clip for the nigga that shot me
Let 'em know this ain't for Quavy
Send this neighborhood a message
The things we do for acceptance
[Chorus]
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels so lost, wondering
Oh yeah
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels lost, still I'm wondering
[Verse 2]
Love, in front of every end of that city
Well apart as eyes
I say this war on crime
Just mean this war ain't mine
Mom is still in the street hustling, she's fifty-five
I'm paranoid someone might take her life
One thing I hate about life is reality
How come that fantasy can't be that truth and
Reality can't be that fantasy
Away with my sanity, pain is grabbing me fierce, it's coming so rapidly
It's god attacking me for all my bells
I feel this chavalry right after me
Why them so fast, but life so slow
I feel like I fake it, but momma, but momma
Been frontin' I know that she know
Her baby, a failure in life
Well fuck it, there's only two places to go
Just happened to fall on my ass
Now I'm asking my father to open his door
Just ready to go
[Chorus]
I mean it, I mean it, I mean it
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels lost, still I'm wondering
[When your life
Can't break it
I am who I am, I see][?]
I mean it, I mean it, I mean it
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels so lost, wondering
I'm off to kill my dreams
Ever since I was a kid
I wanted nothing more
Than to put a smile on my father's face
And move my momma out
Of the bottom floor, of those projects
To a house somewhere on the lake
Somewhere far away with a picket fence
Before I threw it all away
Before I lost my innocence
When, when there was more to life than just trying to be accepted
How ignorant and naive one can be to depressed and, and
The hurt felt from being molested as a child
I was angry, I'll admit it I had resentment for a while
You, you never know how that shit affects you as a child
And not a saying in my heart is manifesting in this wild, young man
Not a soul in this cold
Now this cold world, just got a lot more colder
What is worse than a child with nothing to lose
Something to prove
My brother told me always do right
Then almost got life
I'm fucking confused
My gun and my pride
It's all that I got
And lettin' shit ride this how I was taught
So if I might die, it'll be for my block
Your nigga sixteen with some work in the soc
If they kill me, I die like a man
When I'm gone, I'ma live like a legend
And the literal homies banging after me wouldn't know my story
I won't be remembered
So pour out some liquor, something expensive
Stop by the house to check on my mom
Make her she good
Tell her you love her
Give her some money and take out the garbage
Load the clip for the nigga that shot me
Let 'em know this ain't for Quavy
Send this neighborhood a message
The things we do for acceptance
[Chorus]
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels so lost, wondering
Oh yeah
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels lost, still I'm wondering
[Verse 2]
Love, in front of every end of that city
Well apart as eyes
I say this war on crime
Just mean this war ain't mine
Mom is still in the street hustling, she's fifty-five
I'm paranoid someone might take her life
One thing I hate about life is reality
How come that fantasy can't be that truth and
Reality can't be that fantasy
Away with my sanity, pain is grabbing me fierce, it's coming so rapidly
It's god attacking me for all my bells
I feel this chavalry right after me
Why them so fast, but life so slow
I feel like I fake it, but momma, but momma
Been frontin' I know that she know
Her baby, a failure in life
Well fuck it, there's only two places to go
Just happened to fall on my ass
Now I'm asking my father to open his door
Just ready to go
[Chorus]
I mean it, I mean it, I mean it
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels lost, still I'm wondering
[When your life
Can't break it
I am who I am, I see][?]
I mean it, I mean it, I mean it
I bought a box just to kill my dreams
Everybody feels so lost, wondering
I'm off to kill my dreams