Can I Live by MJ McClellan Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Life at the bottom, I got so many problems but I don't know to solve em so this pain is deep
Friday nights I'm the one the people came to see, and they gon love me while I can't be beat
But they don't see the everyday struggle I go through that still keeps me awake
My mom is trying but them habits getting harder to break
And my sisters starving. Swear we got a lot that's on our plate
And I'm out here moving weight, when you gon let us catch a break
I'm tryna get this money to feed her
At arms reach but feeling like it's always running from me
And It's harder than it looks, the Feds gunning for me. And every night my demons coming for me
They said that selling easy money but they lied to me
But I kept trying since I saw my momma crying for me
18 years I ain't seen my fathers face
18 years that you let these tears roll down her face
But she got better man. But she still got her problems
She keep downing shots of vodka thinking maybe she can solve em
But that just make harder on us
And I feel so distant even tho it started with us
Ain't thinking right, like I guess that this just ain't the life for me
Contemplating suicide i guess it's the night for me
My girl said she loved me, gotta go our separate ways
So suicide might be the only way to end these desperate days
But when she not around to talk I don't know just how to feel. I was tired of breaking down so I tried to swallow pills
I couldn't do it, so I sat up and just cried
How I thank god in these hard times
[Hook]
Can I live?
[Verse 2]
16 with a beautiful smile, beautiful style. Good grades. Shes beautiful girl. Why is she crying
But she got her own demons she's been fighting every season. She can't seem to defeat em so they sticking around
Now she's screaming for help but nobody can hear her
So she just cried to herself. Don't see herself in the mirror
Never revealing her secrets her struggles seem non existent
She's too pretty for problems so she's just hiding her feelings
She know God has got a plan so she gon ride until the end
Her boyfriend playing around but she can't find another man
She just young and she in love but her mom don't understand
Seems like all her friends are fake so she just tryna find a friend
Well baby girl Ima ride for you
And if it came to take a bullet I would die for
I acknowledge you're effort. You got my acceptance
Not too often I invite people into my perspective
Last person I let in left me you'd think I'd learn my lesson
But since the first impression i knew you'd be a blessing
You were beaten and bruised, I was lost and confused
But who would think the road less travel would leave me walkin with you
I never knew you was a angel in disguise
But I now I see god had left angel in my eyes
Every day I thanked the lord, I wasn't looking when I found you
Now every step I take I'm thankful that I found you
Life at the bottom, I got so many problems but I don't know to solve em so this pain is deep
Friday nights I'm the one the people came to see, and they gon love me while I can't be beat
But they don't see the everyday struggle I go through that still keeps me awake
My mom is trying but them habits getting harder to break
And my sisters starving. Swear we got a lot that's on our plate
And I'm out here moving weight, when you gon let us catch a break
I'm tryna get this money to feed her
At arms reach but feeling like it's always running from me
And It's harder than it looks, the Feds gunning for me. And every night my demons coming for me
They said that selling easy money but they lied to me
But I kept trying since I saw my momma crying for me
18 years I ain't seen my fathers face
18 years that you let these tears roll down her face
But she got better man. But she still got her problems
She keep downing shots of vodka thinking maybe she can solve em
But that just make harder on us
And I feel so distant even tho it started with us
Ain't thinking right, like I guess that this just ain't the life for me
Contemplating suicide i guess it's the night for me
My girl said she loved me, gotta go our separate ways
So suicide might be the only way to end these desperate days
But when she not around to talk I don't know just how to feel. I was tired of breaking down so I tried to swallow pills
I couldn't do it, so I sat up and just cried
How I thank god in these hard times
[Hook]
Can I live?
[Verse 2]
16 with a beautiful smile, beautiful style. Good grades. Shes beautiful girl. Why is she crying
But she got her own demons she's been fighting every season. She can't seem to defeat em so they sticking around
Now she's screaming for help but nobody can hear her
So she just cried to herself. Don't see herself in the mirror
Never revealing her secrets her struggles seem non existent
She's too pretty for problems so she's just hiding her feelings
She know God has got a plan so she gon ride until the end
Her boyfriend playing around but she can't find another man
She just young and she in love but her mom don't understand
Seems like all her friends are fake so she just tryna find a friend
Well baby girl Ima ride for you
And if it came to take a bullet I would die for
I acknowledge you're effort. You got my acceptance
Not too often I invite people into my perspective
Last person I let in left me you'd think I'd learn my lesson
But since the first impression i knew you'd be a blessing
You were beaten and bruised, I was lost and confused
But who would think the road less travel would leave me walkin with you
I never knew you was a angel in disguise
But I now I see god had left angel in my eyes
Every day I thanked the lord, I wasn't looking when I found you
Now every step I take I'm thankful that I found you