Breathing In by Libyans Lyrics

I fought this all
I faced the truth
You'll fuck it up just like you always do
Creating lives inside my mind
And changing face to while away the time

Recriminations, words I've lost
I think I understand the costs
Why can't I change myself?

I read these books to figure out the truth
But still it hangs just out of reach
It's worthless, never follow through
Distractions like these aren't solving anything

Recriminations, words I've lost
I think I understand the costs
Why can't I change myself?
These resolutions don't hold true
Another fault I'll blame on you
To get it off myself
Fight towards this act of breathing in
I just can't quite decipher this