2. Suicidal Thoughts by Lay Los Lyrics
[Intro]
Yeah
It's Lay Los
It's conversation I had with myself, man
Conversation!
[Verse 1]
Lately I being hearing voices preach
No more noises hear my speech
Feeling nauseous I will vomit
Be cautious I will commit
Suicide, suicidal thoughts
Who is nice, be silent pause
Now let journey with sip of Heaney
I'm talking Hennesy more enemies
Ain't tripping truth speeding
World spinning like a ball like
My whole life, spinning like a ball like
Sleepless nights, sacrifices, day and nights
My first track, my first try
Two downloads and what's wrong
One is from a friend I forced to download for a favor
Another one is from a neighbor, another favor
I was focused but confused, till I refuse to choose
Then I choose niggas they accuse
Hell'e wait who is the heavy-weight
On the game, this is silhouettes
This is holy game, no more fame
This is just a dream some sniffing pill to pursue the skill
Fuck the government, getting few mill, but heavily taxed
Fuck the mill, I'm heavenly blessed, hell'e depressed
I'm blessed, oppressed till I pass, coz I'm the best
Patience for better days, thugs says crime pays
City full of snakes, full of fakes if that's the case
I will never chase, teas fall on face and disappear without the trace
Chasing fans feel like bullet in my face
Oh lord save me a place, just in case I die
Remember this face
Of course, outsources, resources, oh cautious cautious
This nonsense called business is useless
You heard about innovation, preparation, occasion, location, passion or patience
Oh that's a passion
My music hell'e hated, hided
Debated, silence celebrated violence
Truth hard to swallow, but lies easy to follow
Dreams to call on and peace to call on
I've traveled, walk killo's, cried wet pillows
I'm talking red nations, racist faces, wet pillow cases
Case dismisses, lot of issues
Have you ever ask yourself?
Am I supposed to do it, don't tell em you can do it
Do it and tell em you did it
Every time I write verses I feel guilty sometimes
Coz, they are some shit about this family that makes me wanna vomit sometime
No perfect family, coz who am I to perceive family as enemies
But what'fuck if mu'fuckers act like enemies
Now I've grown wings to deal with mu'fuckers think I'm digging diamond rings
Peace man, just peace to this niggas, peace
[Hook]
Now fuck the fame, fuck the fame coz I won't like it
Fuck the fame ain't like it you can keep it
Only two fans plus you and your friends
Will make a difference
Now fuck the fame
[Lay Los speaks]
Just the conversation I had with myself man
Fuck the fame you can keep that shit
Ain't like it, coz lately I realized that
Fame is just a bunch of mu'fuckers bragging about money
But that money took their freedom fuck that
Ain't like fame nigga, I'm a real nigga
Only two fans niggas, that's enough for the real nigga
That's enough for the real nigga
Keep that shit called fame keep it
I'm just a real nigga, for real
For real man, shit
Excuse my vulgar words I'm a real nigga
Yeah
It's Lay Los
It's conversation I had with myself, man
Conversation!
[Verse 1]
Lately I being hearing voices preach
No more noises hear my speech
Feeling nauseous I will vomit
Be cautious I will commit
Suicide, suicidal thoughts
Who is nice, be silent pause
Now let journey with sip of Heaney
I'm talking Hennesy more enemies
Ain't tripping truth speeding
World spinning like a ball like
My whole life, spinning like a ball like
Sleepless nights, sacrifices, day and nights
My first track, my first try
Two downloads and what's wrong
One is from a friend I forced to download for a favor
Another one is from a neighbor, another favor
I was focused but confused, till I refuse to choose
Then I choose niggas they accuse
Hell'e wait who is the heavy-weight
On the game, this is silhouettes
This is holy game, no more fame
This is just a dream some sniffing pill to pursue the skill
Fuck the government, getting few mill, but heavily taxed
Fuck the mill, I'm heavenly blessed, hell'e depressed
I'm blessed, oppressed till I pass, coz I'm the best
Patience for better days, thugs says crime pays
City full of snakes, full of fakes if that's the case
I will never chase, teas fall on face and disappear without the trace
Chasing fans feel like bullet in my face
Oh lord save me a place, just in case I die
Remember this face
Of course, outsources, resources, oh cautious cautious
This nonsense called business is useless
You heard about innovation, preparation, occasion, location, passion or patience
Oh that's a passion
My music hell'e hated, hided
Debated, silence celebrated violence
Truth hard to swallow, but lies easy to follow
Dreams to call on and peace to call on
I've traveled, walk killo's, cried wet pillows
I'm talking red nations, racist faces, wet pillow cases
Case dismisses, lot of issues
Have you ever ask yourself?
Am I supposed to do it, don't tell em you can do it
Do it and tell em you did it
Every time I write verses I feel guilty sometimes
Coz, they are some shit about this family that makes me wanna vomit sometime
No perfect family, coz who am I to perceive family as enemies
But what'fuck if mu'fuckers act like enemies
Now I've grown wings to deal with mu'fuckers think I'm digging diamond rings
Peace man, just peace to this niggas, peace
[Hook]
Now fuck the fame, fuck the fame coz I won't like it
Fuck the fame ain't like it you can keep it
Only two fans plus you and your friends
Will make a difference
Now fuck the fame
[Lay Los speaks]
Just the conversation I had with myself man
Fuck the fame you can keep that shit
Ain't like it, coz lately I realized that
Fame is just a bunch of mu'fuckers bragging about money
But that money took their freedom fuck that
Ain't like fame nigga, I'm a real nigga
Only two fans niggas, that's enough for the real nigga
That's enough for the real nigga
Keep that shit called fame keep it
I'm just a real nigga, for real
For real man, shit
Excuse my vulgar words I'm a real nigga