Cr_utch by Kzavehr Lyrics

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In my bed I'm so alone
Getting fucked up, I need couple xanax, not for show
That's for real
You can trust me cause the things I say ain't funny
I ain't doin this for money
I'm just tryna get around
Tryna get your attention
Cause the life I'm dreaming of ain't the life I'm living
But I'm dreaming of a future with you
And that's the only dream I really want to become true

So come closer, let me use you as my crutch
Cause my time left won't be that much
I can't even help myself anymore
But I feel so selfish
In the dark I'm helpless
Self reflection failing
Shit!
I ain't got no open doors
Only thing that I can do is just waiting on the floor
Or step onto an trapdoor
To fucking end it all
But I've got too much left
And I can't leave you alone
So fuck off
I'll continue with this life
And maybe lay down my knife
I know times can be hard
Especially when it's dark
And you ain't get no responses from the ones that you love
I've never thought that some day I sink so far
But every lost friend leaves a scar
Maybe some day I will end up as a star
But the way seems endless so I fill my lungs with tar