find god by Koshi Lyrics
[Intro]
Staring at the sky
I would rather die than be alive
Lyin' to your face but nevermind
Nevermind, I can't find god 'cause he was never mine
[Verse]
Nowadays my issues don't inspire me
I know if I didn't have 'em I don't know what I would be
But I still got my hand in my bag, things that I won't speak
I even got a safe full of shit 'bout the people 'round me
Mom ain't it a sight to see
Visions of my dreams in fruition's a different side of me
And I don't like what's been in your spirit It's somethin' I don't need
I'm sorry I tend to get in my feelings when bitches lie to me
I used to have a job at Amazon fixin' expiry
Fuck a 9-5 so I'm guessin' that overnight's for me
Wonder if my time for this music shit is expiring
Want it all it's inside of me
Fuck 'em all if they doubtin'
Love you all if you proud of me
I think it's my time
'Cause I just put my ten thousand hours in now it's times five
I told you be transparent with me 'cause I don't see signs
And I know if I take another sip I would rewind that's always when y'all hit me
You only seem to hit me when I'm not fine
Ask 'em how they doin' they always good and I'm not surprised
When that question falls onto me they always stop replyin'
Just say I'm great and keep it pushin' between the lines
Look, I know you wanna be somebody
I know you better than you know yourself, I'm your diary
Ain't hard to get lost in it especially when I'm upset
I thought I had common sense but you get shit that I don't get
I get there's a difference in the shit that we all climbin' or
Differences in the shit we all climbin'
I'm in my mother-fuckin' mode 'bout to drown 'em in a fountain
What's a Hidden Hill compared to all these mountains
Oh, I have to go home
[Outro]
Now listen, I been disrespected and neglected
My self respect is my biggest preference
I swear to god if you walked into my mind you would see 7 exits
7 exes, all been out mind but not my solar plexus
I got different colors for my moods but I can't correct it
Plottin' on my grand escape a check right out of my mental state
Mood swings and stomach aches, so tell me shit I fuckin' hate
Only had one option to be honest so I won't be late
Man, look at me I found myself and he's here to stay
I been fightin' Koshi everyday that was my mistake
How you feel about it's not my problem 'cause we don't relate
And lastly I wouldn't be here without my papi
I fuckin' hate you, but nigga I'm happy
Staring at the sky
I would rather die than be alive
Lyin' to your face but nevermind
Nevermind, I can't find god 'cause he was never mine
[Verse]
Nowadays my issues don't inspire me
I know if I didn't have 'em I don't know what I would be
But I still got my hand in my bag, things that I won't speak
I even got a safe full of shit 'bout the people 'round me
Mom ain't it a sight to see
Visions of my dreams in fruition's a different side of me
And I don't like what's been in your spirit It's somethin' I don't need
I'm sorry I tend to get in my feelings when bitches lie to me
I used to have a job at Amazon fixin' expiry
Fuck a 9-5 so I'm guessin' that overnight's for me
Wonder if my time for this music shit is expiring
Want it all it's inside of me
Fuck 'em all if they doubtin'
Love you all if you proud of me
I think it's my time
'Cause I just put my ten thousand hours in now it's times five
I told you be transparent with me 'cause I don't see signs
And I know if I take another sip I would rewind that's always when y'all hit me
You only seem to hit me when I'm not fine
Ask 'em how they doin' they always good and I'm not surprised
When that question falls onto me they always stop replyin'
Just say I'm great and keep it pushin' between the lines
Look, I know you wanna be somebody
I know you better than you know yourself, I'm your diary
Ain't hard to get lost in it especially when I'm upset
I thought I had common sense but you get shit that I don't get
I get there's a difference in the shit that we all climbin' or
Differences in the shit we all climbin'
I'm in my mother-fuckin' mode 'bout to drown 'em in a fountain
What's a Hidden Hill compared to all these mountains
Oh, I have to go home
[Outro]
Now listen, I been disrespected and neglected
My self respect is my biggest preference
I swear to god if you walked into my mind you would see 7 exits
7 exes, all been out mind but not my solar plexus
I got different colors for my moods but I can't correct it
Plottin' on my grand escape a check right out of my mental state
Mood swings and stomach aches, so tell me shit I fuckin' hate
Only had one option to be honest so I won't be late
Man, look at me I found myself and he's here to stay
I been fightin' Koshi everyday that was my mistake
How you feel about it's not my problem 'cause we don't relate
And lastly I wouldn't be here without my papi
I fuckin' hate you, but nigga I'm happy