Infestatio by Koroded Lyrics

I'm afflicted with nothing but myself
Now I'm feeding my bed bucks again and again
Paralysed by thoughts of lead deep within
How much of my time did I spend like this
Could I have one of these wasted days back again
Shadow without a man where is the rest of me
A vast surging ocean - as deep and wide as my soul
I'm descending deeper - living there apnoe
Black-eyed girls, ghosts from the past they keep on pursuing me
Now and then visit me - gently kill in my dreams
There are faces that make me go insane
There is a life I never had
All the lies I told myself
Broke the will to defeat the enemy deep within
All my personal demons appear again
As she talks with a voice that I cannot resist
Trapping misleading it's taking the best of me
The greatest of all fears is laying her arms around me
My save home taken away there is no more place to be
Still I feel the warmth of the sun deep within me tonight
But it can't ease the pain it can't melt the ice inside
Thoughts run amok deep within myself
I'm on my way straight into nothingness
I've been waiting, hesitating wasting too much time
Black-eyed girls, ghosts from the past they keep on pursuing me
Now and then visit me kill me softly in my dreams
You are my destination