AMBIVALENCE TOWARDS THE BRUSH FIRE by Kole Xidas Lyrics
[Intro: Logan Alexander]
Living my life
I could just sigh
Look at my eyes
Nothing inside
Except the remains of a mind
Think I might faint if this goes on longer
Think I might faint if this goes on longer
Who am I now if I didn’t get stronger
Think I might faint if this goes on longer
[Hook: Kole Xidas]
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
[Verse 1: Logan Alexander]
Send me outsidе
Let me sit on the rainbow porch
Takе a torch light up my skin
I can promise I’d be a good sport
All my days are boring
Or they’re overwhelming
See the sky in grayscale
Life is jail
But I won’t pay bail
Cause i still wanna spin that pitiful tale
See the life that I’m living and I’m biting my lip
Till I’m ripping my skin cause I know id be happier broken
Gonna take a pic to remember the lows
Cause you never learn a lesson if you don’t take blows
I’m choking for fun cause I laugh when I’m meant to be running to the hills
The tension can’t build if I act relaxed
So I’ll slack off until you back off
[Hook: Kole Xidas]
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
[Verse 2: Kole Xidas]
It’s my default settings to be trampled over
The time moves slow but my heart beats slower
Put all my effort into my composure
Just hoping I can get a hint of closure
But now I’m here drowning again
Come back to you every now and then
The flames bite my skin, but they aren’t sharp as you
It feels like the end, but I’m not scarred as you
I’m a mess that ain’t ever tryna clean up
I confess that I would never try to fuckin’ speak up
So I guess it’s my fault, huh?
So I guess it’s my fault, huh?
Water fills my lungs, I should have spoke, but I left the vault door shut
Tired of the blue waters
I’ll take whatever deal from anyone who offers
At this point I’m desperate, just want this to end
But the fires still blaze on and I won’t pretend
That I got a bright future ahead of me
I know I’ll fuck it up, I’m my own worst enemy
Stop threatening me with a good time
My reckoning breaking through the frostbite
Sorry babe, looks like I’ve done it again
I’ve opened my mouth and now I’m condemned
Fill my lungs with the freezing cold
'Cause I’m not easily controlled
Hold your wound but it’s not that simple
Old bruise still on your dimple
The flames still rage on, refusing to dwindle
But we can’t rekindle our love
[Hook: Kole Xidas]
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
Living my life
I could just sigh
Look at my eyes
Nothing inside
Except the remains of a mind
Think I might faint if this goes on longer
Think I might faint if this goes on longer
Who am I now if I didn’t get stronger
Think I might faint if this goes on longer
[Hook: Kole Xidas]
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
[Verse 1: Logan Alexander]
Send me outsidе
Let me sit on the rainbow porch
Takе a torch light up my skin
I can promise I’d be a good sport
All my days are boring
Or they’re overwhelming
See the sky in grayscale
Life is jail
But I won’t pay bail
Cause i still wanna spin that pitiful tale
See the life that I’m living and I’m biting my lip
Till I’m ripping my skin cause I know id be happier broken
Gonna take a pic to remember the lows
Cause you never learn a lesson if you don’t take blows
I’m choking for fun cause I laugh when I’m meant to be running to the hills
The tension can’t build if I act relaxed
So I’ll slack off until you back off
[Hook: Kole Xidas]
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
[Verse 2: Kole Xidas]
It’s my default settings to be trampled over
The time moves slow but my heart beats slower
Put all my effort into my composure
Just hoping I can get a hint of closure
But now I’m here drowning again
Come back to you every now and then
The flames bite my skin, but they aren’t sharp as you
It feels like the end, but I’m not scarred as you
I’m a mess that ain’t ever tryna clean up
I confess that I would never try to fuckin’ speak up
So I guess it’s my fault, huh?
So I guess it’s my fault, huh?
Water fills my lungs, I should have spoke, but I left the vault door shut
Tired of the blue waters
I’ll take whatever deal from anyone who offers
At this point I’m desperate, just want this to end
But the fires still blaze on and I won’t pretend
That I got a bright future ahead of me
I know I’ll fuck it up, I’m my own worst enemy
Stop threatening me with a good time
My reckoning breaking through the frostbite
Sorry babe, looks like I’ve done it again
I’ve opened my mouth and now I’m condemned
Fill my lungs with the freezing cold
'Cause I’m not easily controlled
Hold your wound but it’s not that simple
Old bruise still on your dimple
The flames still rage on, refusing to dwindle
But we can’t rekindle our love
[Hook: Kole Xidas]
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths
As I listen to the flames I knew
I should be feeling shame or rue
Breathe in different shades of blue
Who’s to fuckin’ blame? Not you
Asking who set fire to the bayou
As you drown me right beside you
But whenever I try to write you
I can only seem to lie truths