Lost by Kj southstar Lyrics

[Verse]
Skinny privileged white bitch
Attention seeking piece of shit
Playing around with a knife
Too puss to actually end his life
Another attempt, he’s still alive
‘Wow, what a damn surprise’

[Verse]
I hate my fucking self
I hate who I’ve become
I’m scared of myself
Only I know all I’ve done
If I can’t even trust myself
Then I can’t trust nobody else

[Verse]
I wish that I could change
I wanna fucking runaway
Try to escape all of this pain
My self-hates turned me insane
I still blame you and probably always will
Not the truth, but I guess that’s just how I feel
[Verse]
Why’d my brother have to die?
My best friend since i was nine
Who the fuck am I?
To contemplate on suicide..
The day that he flat-lined
Where the fuck was I?
I'm the one who should've died

[Verse]
Next day I got hospitalized
So I never got to say goodbye
He won't hear me but it'd still be nice
I will be never be fucking fine
At least never in my mind
To the day that I fucking die

[Verse]
Thoughts of a psychotic kid
My brain couldn't defend the blitz
So yeah the thoughts are back again
These nightmares got me panicing
I feel like I am Anakin
I killed the men, the women, and the kids

[Bridge]
Popping pills to feel nothing
Got addicted to the Xanax
Now brain's fucked & damaged
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I've lost all my control
Broken heart, abandoned soul
I wish these thoughts would fucking go
Just leave me the fuck alone
[Outro]
I've left people traumatized
I put the tear drops in their eyes
I tore them down with all my lies
I took all of their lives
And I left them dead inside
I’m just a demon in disguise...

[Sample]
"What about you?
What is your dream?
What is... your dream?"
"I don't... I don't know, I uhh..
I don't really dream that much
You kinda get tired...
Tired of them not coming true, I guess
So...
I don't really like... having them"