Alone by Kj southstar Lyrics
[Sample]
If we fight
Let the walls we built so high up
Falling so low
[Verse]
Can't go a day without thoughts of suicide
You can look into my eyes
And see that I am dead inside
Nothing left but pain inside
Nothing left but rage inside
I've been verbally abusive
I cope with the drugs that I'm abusing
And the Menthol's I be using
I gotta hella brain damage
I'm either numb or in a panic
I'm either depressed or I'm manic
Too many tears in my eyes
Too many years filled with lies
Too many ruined lives
[Verse]
I've tried to cope with a knife
I've tried to end my fucking life
Not a single damn goodbye
Wish i never came out bi
Used to be afraid to die
Now I'm in love with suicide
My friends suck & never there
I don't think they ever cared
Don't wanna fall in love again
Rather fall off of a bridge
I lay restless in my bed
Fighting voices in my head
I see my grandma's dead bodies
Can't get any sleep at night
Too busy planning how to end my life
[Verse]
I never go outside
Stay in bed till the day I die
Made my momma cry
Way too many fucking times
Preachers kid turned to a heathen
As angelic as a demon
I look down
My wrists are bleeding
The pain never stops
It just comes in different forms
I do stupid shit on purpose
Being smart makes me bored
Buying drugs I can't afford
I stay put not going forward
Inside my bodies a civil war
(shit)
[Verse]
Bitch I'm not okay
Please don't even ask
I gotta carry on from my X like I'm Ski Mask
Unhealthy relationship
It's getting real hard to fake this shit
Just turned 18
Already a slave to the nicotine
False hopes turned to broken dreams
The feelings come & go
But the scars never leave
How could i be so naive
To tell you what's inside of me
You said that you'd never leave me
SO WHY THE FUCK AM I ALONE?
If we fight
Let the walls we built so high up
Falling so low
[Verse]
Can't go a day without thoughts of suicide
You can look into my eyes
And see that I am dead inside
Nothing left but pain inside
Nothing left but rage inside
I've been verbally abusive
I cope with the drugs that I'm abusing
And the Menthol's I be using
I gotta hella brain damage
I'm either numb or in a panic
I'm either depressed or I'm manic
Too many tears in my eyes
Too many years filled with lies
Too many ruined lives
[Verse]
I've tried to cope with a knife
I've tried to end my fucking life
Not a single damn goodbye
Wish i never came out bi
Used to be afraid to die
Now I'm in love with suicide
My friends suck & never there
I don't think they ever cared
Don't wanna fall in love again
Rather fall off of a bridge
I lay restless in my bed
Fighting voices in my head
I see my grandma's dead bodies
Can't get any sleep at night
Too busy planning how to end my life
[Verse]
I never go outside
Stay in bed till the day I die
Made my momma cry
Way too many fucking times
Preachers kid turned to a heathen
As angelic as a demon
I look down
My wrists are bleeding
The pain never stops
It just comes in different forms
I do stupid shit on purpose
Being smart makes me bored
Buying drugs I can't afford
I stay put not going forward
Inside my bodies a civil war
(shit)
[Verse]
Bitch I'm not okay
Please don't even ask
I gotta carry on from my X like I'm Ski Mask
Unhealthy relationship
It's getting real hard to fake this shit
Just turned 18
Already a slave to the nicotine
False hopes turned to broken dreams
The feelings come & go
But the scars never leave
How could i be so naive
To tell you what's inside of me
You said that you'd never leave me
SO WHY THE FUCK AM I ALONE?