Fuck II by King Duma Lyrics

I’m lost and afraid
My heart hurts and in a spade
A dark place of discomfort
I cannot keep this lie up anymore
I’m sitting here crying and praying on this floor
Hoping you will walk through this door
To hug me and tell me you love me
Love me the way I love you
But you have the this right to not feel this way
And it’s my fault all the way
But I refuse to allow you to have any power more over me
B/c I can’t fall into that place again
That place that has brought us here
And I know I have to let you go my dear,
This is my biggest fear
But it’s something I’m going to face
And shed my final tear
I can’t have what I want
B/c I didn’t value it the same when I had it
I recognize that and have to accept that fault
I will admit I will not try anymore
I can’t keep playing this game
My heart can’t take it
This battle of doing good to be burned
And this battle of protection to be burned
Nothing of this have I earned
At least from my hearts standpoint
I can say I’ve learned
But that’s nothing
When it can’t be shown with the one(s)
I wanted to share that with.
Do I put my feelings aside and ride this pain?
Do I put myself first and refuse to be in this state?
Do I shut down from the pain and slowly die?
Do I continue to shed tears, tears I cannot cry?
What do I do?