Only One by Kid choppa Lyrics

Tired everyday
Can't fake it no more for the fakes
Depression can be faced
But not with you all in my face
Doing my own thing
Rewriting my own resume
I forgave and I forgot
But still your actions never stopped
Can't see the bigger picture
Made it harder to reconsider
Always telling lectures
But they never made it better
Now I'm done and gone
There's no need to write a letter
Couldn't stay another day
I felt way to out of place
Kicked out of your place
I Guess love can be replaced
After your battle with my depression
Left me feeling worse so much reflection
Suicides is not an option
But life already is my coffin
Life has ups and downs
But even up I still can frown
Outside i play it cool
I guess I'm not see through and
When I speaked the truth
You turned it down without a clue
Days without you I admit I feel more blues
But days with you left me feeling like a fool
Sick and tired of being used this is my life to pick and choose
I wanna call you dad
Even if I've never had that
I wanna go back
These feelings I've had
I've tried to protect
I've protest
Nah I'm bad
I wrote this down
In a song that's so sad
While my heads down
I'd rather be dead
Ima deadbeat
I'm laying ten feet
Underneath the water
Yeah I'm sinking
Like I've gotta shock collar
Man I shoulda yelled louder
Now it's all cloudy
And I'm lonely
All because she thought wrong
You'll never know me
Look what you brought along
You'll never show me
Baby I'm glowing
Can never stop flowing
Yeah I'm blowing away in the wind
This isn't a phase, I'ma win
Can tell by my face I'm willing to sin
Again and again until I make amends...