The Release by Kesh Dcftw Lyrics
(Verse)
Let me tell you how it is as stressful as it gets got way too many feelings and emotions on my chest and a few mad thoughts in my head it's like I can barely think most of the time on brink I lost my 2 brothers and I lost my nan my friend died it wasn't part of the plan my dad's never bin around to show me around lately I've bin feeling more than cold I just wanna do this music ting till I'm old but my past is catching up every tune I make I keep digging deeper this stuff has me feeling weaker I think I need to chill out and take a breather but the second I do that I'll get overlapped can't stop going even if that means I collapse gotta keep it moving keep it grinding can't constantly keep rewinding but it's hard got too much stuff and it tares me apart when I make these tunes I make them from the bottom of my heart and most of the time I dig to far sometimes I'm left clueless and lost for words I have autism adhd special needs learning difficulties plus Aspergers and a bit of mental health which fucks with my health it's mad anxiety makes me leave my house with a fight depression gives me suicidal thoughts through the night everything is a madness sick of feeling the sadness just me with my thoughts don't need a round of applause I never wanna go there again picture the scene room was fully white bars on the window nothing but a bed had me feeling insane from that day I knew I had to change my ways don't wanna be in that position again so it looks like I'm gunna have to stop venting the thoughts in my brain and find a way how to deal with the pain this music ting helps a bit usually I'm feeling overly fucked if you piss me off you better run if you're gunna chat shit hold you're gums had way too many fake cunts I struggle with my rap and writing my tracks I also fuck up with the pronunciation as well so damn i'm quite lucky I can still wrip this up I'm gunna have to go soon cause I've said enough to anyone that listens to this nuff love and care if you ever need me I swear I'll be there it's rare to find someone like me these days sometimes I get the urge to self harm but I can't put that knife in my palm cause I'll do is create bare meaningless scares but I've gotta move on and try stay strong the past is the past and trust me mine is like smashed glass so many pieces so many fragments bin through so much shit you wouldn't be able to imagine if I went in deep you wouldn't be able to sleep I only scratch the surface but it's worth it and that's why I react how I react but people like to judge and laugh without facts fuck em all I hope they burn in hell I hope the remours they spread are reversed on themselves real talk don't help me if I can't help myself same thing goes for anyone else as well don't waste ya time invest it well could be here today and gone tomorrow so live every day like it's last you're last cause everything can easily change in a flash if you've got certain feelings I'll try pass you healings if you're not surviving I'll try pass you revivings so many people doing music how the fuck am I gunna blow well only the real last and fakes get exposed that's just about all I know my mum is my queen and my little sister is my pricness I'm just out here trying to smash my dreams and make my visions a reality
Let me tell you how it is as stressful as it gets got way too many feelings and emotions on my chest and a few mad thoughts in my head it's like I can barely think most of the time on brink I lost my 2 brothers and I lost my nan my friend died it wasn't part of the plan my dad's never bin around to show me around lately I've bin feeling more than cold I just wanna do this music ting till I'm old but my past is catching up every tune I make I keep digging deeper this stuff has me feeling weaker I think I need to chill out and take a breather but the second I do that I'll get overlapped can't stop going even if that means I collapse gotta keep it moving keep it grinding can't constantly keep rewinding but it's hard got too much stuff and it tares me apart when I make these tunes I make them from the bottom of my heart and most of the time I dig to far sometimes I'm left clueless and lost for words I have autism adhd special needs learning difficulties plus Aspergers and a bit of mental health which fucks with my health it's mad anxiety makes me leave my house with a fight depression gives me suicidal thoughts through the night everything is a madness sick of feeling the sadness just me with my thoughts don't need a round of applause I never wanna go there again picture the scene room was fully white bars on the window nothing but a bed had me feeling insane from that day I knew I had to change my ways don't wanna be in that position again so it looks like I'm gunna have to stop venting the thoughts in my brain and find a way how to deal with the pain this music ting helps a bit usually I'm feeling overly fucked if you piss me off you better run if you're gunna chat shit hold you're gums had way too many fake cunts I struggle with my rap and writing my tracks I also fuck up with the pronunciation as well so damn i'm quite lucky I can still wrip this up I'm gunna have to go soon cause I've said enough to anyone that listens to this nuff love and care if you ever need me I swear I'll be there it's rare to find someone like me these days sometimes I get the urge to self harm but I can't put that knife in my palm cause I'll do is create bare meaningless scares but I've gotta move on and try stay strong the past is the past and trust me mine is like smashed glass so many pieces so many fragments bin through so much shit you wouldn't be able to imagine if I went in deep you wouldn't be able to sleep I only scratch the surface but it's worth it and that's why I react how I react but people like to judge and laugh without facts fuck em all I hope they burn in hell I hope the remours they spread are reversed on themselves real talk don't help me if I can't help myself same thing goes for anyone else as well don't waste ya time invest it well could be here today and gone tomorrow so live every day like it's last you're last cause everything can easily change in a flash if you've got certain feelings I'll try pass you healings if you're not surviving I'll try pass you revivings so many people doing music how the fuck am I gunna blow well only the real last and fakes get exposed that's just about all I know my mum is my queen and my little sister is my pricness I'm just out here trying to smash my dreams and make my visions a reality