Night Time by Kesh Dcftw Lyrics
(Verse)
I feel suicidal in the night time got feelings to end my life line I’ve had so many sleepless nights rinse and repeat and I feel like shite thinking when is my life gunna come to an end don’t wanna join the 21 club but I would be lying if I said it didn’t peak my interest I ain’t tryna fall or be like the rest no disrespect I’m just tryna be different in the night time I feel different suicidal thoughts hitting different is the happiness gunna stay consistent or forever keeps it’s distance they try to control my music but don’t understand my mind it’s a dangerous place in there I’ve died thousands of times why would I lie sometimes I cry when I’m up late tryna paint the picture for a better life cause you only get one and I don’t want to spend mine trapped in my mind going round in circles wasting time cause eventually when I find myself and start to do good my spirits will take flight sorry truth but I guess that’s how it goes as soon as you put the pieces together and life flows that’s when you get taken away I wish it didn’t have to be this way any day could be my last I’m sick of stepping on all the shattered glass creating more cracks feeling like trash I know I gotta make it through my pain and that’s facts can’t let anything hold me back I think of my uncle in the night time stuffs seems black and white in the night time tend to feel worse in the night time tend to think of my dad in the night time emotions take over in the night time I hate being alone in the night time everything is cold and dark and starts to pull on my heart till it breaks sometimes I don’t wanna be here but they beg me to stay but when I’m around they treat like I don’t exist I wish there was a one way exit out of pain out of my brain without involving any suicidal ways I just wanna permanently be okay without darkness creeping up on me on my off days feasting on vulnerability likes it’s a treat not giving a fuck about how it leaves me I know they don’t care but they say they love me doesn’t make any sense I’ve got to many scars to many wounds feeling battered feeling bruised all they did was extend on my pain for no reason other than self gain we ain’t same and never have been all my experiences have changed me Kesh Dcftw is a completely different person to Kesh don’t get them two confused ones more unique and that’s the truth I tend to lurk In the shadows of doom bet you thought I was gunna say room now all I got you feeling all confused thinking how could he switch it like that I’ve gotta put some type of positive spin on a emotional track just so you know it ain’t all deep the feelings don’t change don’t get it twisted they ain’t fake always bin realistic in terms of gifts and talents this is my only one hence why I pour my heart into every song hoping I can help or inspire someone else so they know they ain’t on this journey by them self
I feel suicidal in the night time got feelings to end my life line I’ve had so many sleepless nights rinse and repeat and I feel like shite thinking when is my life gunna come to an end don’t wanna join the 21 club but I would be lying if I said it didn’t peak my interest I ain’t tryna fall or be like the rest no disrespect I’m just tryna be different in the night time I feel different suicidal thoughts hitting different is the happiness gunna stay consistent or forever keeps it’s distance they try to control my music but don’t understand my mind it’s a dangerous place in there I’ve died thousands of times why would I lie sometimes I cry when I’m up late tryna paint the picture for a better life cause you only get one and I don’t want to spend mine trapped in my mind going round in circles wasting time cause eventually when I find myself and start to do good my spirits will take flight sorry truth but I guess that’s how it goes as soon as you put the pieces together and life flows that’s when you get taken away I wish it didn’t have to be this way any day could be my last I’m sick of stepping on all the shattered glass creating more cracks feeling like trash I know I gotta make it through my pain and that’s facts can’t let anything hold me back I think of my uncle in the night time stuffs seems black and white in the night time tend to feel worse in the night time tend to think of my dad in the night time emotions take over in the night time I hate being alone in the night time everything is cold and dark and starts to pull on my heart till it breaks sometimes I don’t wanna be here but they beg me to stay but when I’m around they treat like I don’t exist I wish there was a one way exit out of pain out of my brain without involving any suicidal ways I just wanna permanently be okay without darkness creeping up on me on my off days feasting on vulnerability likes it’s a treat not giving a fuck about how it leaves me I know they don’t care but they say they love me doesn’t make any sense I’ve got to many scars to many wounds feeling battered feeling bruised all they did was extend on my pain for no reason other than self gain we ain’t same and never have been all my experiences have changed me Kesh Dcftw is a completely different person to Kesh don’t get them two confused ones more unique and that’s the truth I tend to lurk In the shadows of doom bet you thought I was gunna say room now all I got you feeling all confused thinking how could he switch it like that I’ve gotta put some type of positive spin on a emotional track just so you know it ain’t all deep the feelings don’t change don’t get it twisted they ain’t fake always bin realistic in terms of gifts and talents this is my only one hence why I pour my heart into every song hoping I can help or inspire someone else so they know they ain’t on this journey by them self