To Forgive Myself by Kelarys Lyrics

The things I've done won't go away
I think about them every day
So many years lost in the dark

And as I stood stuck in my past
Unsure of how long it would last
I felt like I had lost my chance to disembark

I'm not even sure what I deserve
it seems unfair to ask for more

But now I want you all to know
I'm not that child from long ago
The one who wouldn't take your hand
The boy who couldn't understand

And I accept that its too late
Did not expect anyone to wait
I threw away the ones that tried to help
But this man needs to learn to forgive myself
I'll always live with my regret
I promise that I won't forget
But id like to give this life another try

I've spent so long now I'm on my own
And now I'm ready to come here
I hope someday ill get the chance to justify

I had almost drowned
But now I found
I've almost made it to the shore

And now I want you all to feel
My shattered soul began to heal
I was crippled from my fall
But now I'm climbing up the wall

Sincerely punished for my crime
Served my sentence, now its time
To pick those broken pieces off the shelf
And to learn to forgive myself

Of course ill always bare the scar
our baggage makes us who we are
Everybody has a past
And we've all made it through
All our failures make us wise
But know that I apologize
I never meant to hurt you

So now I want you to see
This person who I choose to be
The version from before is gone
I can finally see the dawn

I would never hurt you now
And if this reaches you somehow
I hope this message finds you in good health

It's alright if you cant forgive me
At least I can forgive myself