PHiNDiNG Myself by Keith Phelps Lyrics
[Verse]
Lemme take em back to middle school
Way back I was just a little bitty dude
Frequently you saw me visiting the principal
Struggling to see my intellect within the institute
Walkin round so confused
Used to a ashamed of everything I was raised on
Lookin for the straight path, but gettin my maze on
Couldn't see the fact that I was truly "amazon"
Destined to shock the world like I was gettin my taze on
Just wanted to fit in
Seeking for some attention
Residential suspension
Tryna avoid retention
In another dimension
Oh did I forget to mention?
I tried to silence the gifts I was given without repentance
Man I made my momma cry many a tears
Struggled with bein different for so many a years
Couldn't see my reflection when I looked in the mirror
And now that I'm looking back I can see it so clear, was just
[Hook]
Phinding myself
Phinding myself
Identity
Serenity
Creativity
On this journey
Phinding myself
Phinding myself
Phind what my calling is
What my purpose is
Pursue when revealed
Until it's fulfilled
[Verse]
I swear people ignore that I'm human
They just look at what I got and then try to abuse it
And then they get upset because I avoid opportunists
And hate the fact that I decided to do my own music
Sometimes you feel like nobody likes you
Unless you play piano, entertaining old white dudes
Feeling like the help while they eating their nice food
Yeah, I'ma keep it real, excuse me if I come off rude
And I ain't workin' with nobody else that sunnin' me
And I refuse to pacify your lack of security
Or the fact you mad I got voice and they hearin me
And the fact that real folks with souls is steady cheering me on
To stay here in my zone
And keep writin' these songs
That resonate with ya bones
Realizing everything I write is always for somebody else
I guess it helps while I'm living here, lookin' here on a journey
[Hook]
[Verse]
I done traveled the farthest
From childhood to artist
From not liking myself and tryna be someone else
To thanking God for the people he finally sent to to help
Now I'm lookin' all in the mirror I'm starting see myself
As the person that he sees
Thankin' him on my knees
And enjoying the simple things like the wind that blows through the trees
And the presence of real friends, love ones and family
Please don't ever be ashamed of the fact that you different
Regardless of your weight, hair, mindset, or pigment
Understand it's the fact that you different
That enables and empowers you to make a difference
So I'm askin' God please send some assistance
To all the people running far from their inner brilliance
To everyone thats hears me speak at this very instance
To all the ones that lookin for they self, God, please shorten the distance
[Hook]
Lemme take em back to middle school
Way back I was just a little bitty dude
Frequently you saw me visiting the principal
Struggling to see my intellect within the institute
Walkin round so confused
Used to a ashamed of everything I was raised on
Lookin for the straight path, but gettin my maze on
Couldn't see the fact that I was truly "amazon"
Destined to shock the world like I was gettin my taze on
Just wanted to fit in
Seeking for some attention
Residential suspension
Tryna avoid retention
In another dimension
Oh did I forget to mention?
I tried to silence the gifts I was given without repentance
Man I made my momma cry many a tears
Struggled with bein different for so many a years
Couldn't see my reflection when I looked in the mirror
And now that I'm looking back I can see it so clear, was just
[Hook]
Phinding myself
Phinding myself
Identity
Serenity
Creativity
On this journey
Phinding myself
Phinding myself
Phind what my calling is
What my purpose is
Pursue when revealed
Until it's fulfilled
[Verse]
I swear people ignore that I'm human
They just look at what I got and then try to abuse it
And then they get upset because I avoid opportunists
And hate the fact that I decided to do my own music
Sometimes you feel like nobody likes you
Unless you play piano, entertaining old white dudes
Feeling like the help while they eating their nice food
Yeah, I'ma keep it real, excuse me if I come off rude
And I ain't workin' with nobody else that sunnin' me
And I refuse to pacify your lack of security
Or the fact you mad I got voice and they hearin me
And the fact that real folks with souls is steady cheering me on
To stay here in my zone
And keep writin' these songs
That resonate with ya bones
Realizing everything I write is always for somebody else
I guess it helps while I'm living here, lookin' here on a journey
[Hook]
[Verse]
I done traveled the farthest
From childhood to artist
From not liking myself and tryna be someone else
To thanking God for the people he finally sent to to help
Now I'm lookin' all in the mirror I'm starting see myself
As the person that he sees
Thankin' him on my knees
And enjoying the simple things like the wind that blows through the trees
And the presence of real friends, love ones and family
Please don't ever be ashamed of the fact that you different
Regardless of your weight, hair, mindset, or pigment
Understand it's the fact that you different
That enables and empowers you to make a difference
So I'm askin' God please send some assistance
To all the people running far from their inner brilliance
To everyone thats hears me speak at this very instance
To all the ones that lookin for they self, God, please shorten the distance
[Hook]