Depression by Kamikazi Lyrics
[Intro]
Faces
So many Faces
Each turn their eyes arrow sharp
I ache to connect with them
To warm myself in the fire of their friendship
And yet, at the very same second, I flee
Retreat further into the internal wasteland
(Depression)
[Verse 1: Kamikazi]
Shit
If you don't have it, you don't know about it
I'mma get in music on my inner demons 'fore I have to come and put a rope around it
If you really feel me and your mental cloudy, better raise up
(Is this a dream)
Be careful, it's really contagious
Though some of those demons you can't run
[?] hang out
[Their severance ?] daily, it maybe is one of the only reasons I can say sum'n
Don't let me surrender, I gave up
Did somebody try to say sum'n
With my homies now I'm by my lonely turn their income into pain numbs
I be disappointed 'cause the shit's [alone ?] and now the game's up
I don't really have friends now
Dressin' like I've been banged up
But in [?] dickies I'm the same [cow ?]
Motherfuck ya
This, that, so [rap on ?] you busters
Better leave me up out of the fuckery, opened a whole can of these dusters
I'm my own worst enemy, I don't need y'all for nothin'
In my own world I come out to play
But I recognize this demon in me is more than I can be
So I guess that it's here to stay
(Depression)
[Interlude 1]
I stare through this unbreakable glass and my reflection stares back
A pale ghost, just watching and waiting
I want to cower but my fury keeps me walking
I'm anchored to these thoughts, these places I wish I'd never known
I'm not like them
(Depression)
[Chorus: Marco Park$]
Hey, you better leave me alone, when I'm all by myself, no I don't need you
Drinkin' away all my problems, I promise you I cannot teach you
Stuck inside my head without a way that you can impact me
Tossing in my bed, I feel the Devil throwing sins at me
What should I do? Should I run away?
That's impossible 'cause it comes with me
Everyday I wish I can take it all back, but I can't 'cause right now, I'm intact with (Depression)
[Verse 2: Kamikazi]
Shit
I'm sorry if you really love me
But everybody's body language tellin' me I ain't nothin' but ugly
I be feelin' your energy, trust me
I can't [pretend ?] when you hug me
I guess I'm just like my momma, I don't need y'all if you don't want me
I was just innocent Kyle, happy and smile but underneath I wasn't laughing out loud
Somethin' lurkin' is attacking me now
Why the fuck are people mad at me now?
[Hate ?] you by association, wait a minute, I don't got no limitations
I can levitate into another level, but I face the devil on occasion
I'm semi-demonic, if that's a problem [with my seven demon litigation ?]
Is Heaven hollow? I'ma hit the bottle
Hope my grandma hear me, I'll be waitin'
See the beast here you've created?
I'm screamin' out "Fuck the world and every mother fucker that made it"
I don't wanna know what I just handled life
I'm down and out, I'm tryna get it right
When life was good, I wasn't out the woods
I really try to get a little piece of light
But I'm over problems, I just wanna fight
I keep on pushin' like a motor bike
I'm runnin' circles 'til I pull the curtains 'cause my brain is workin' when I'm home at night
I'm my own worst enemy, I don't need y'all for nothin'
In my own world I come out to play
But I recognize this demon in me is more than I can be
So I guess that it's here to stay (Depression)
[Interlude 2]
I'm wary of this world and I barely even scratched the surface
Some days everything is so slow
I see it as though I'm drowning
There's an emptiness inside me
A hollow hole where happiness once was, a void, a wasteland
(Depression)
[Chorus: Marco Park$]
Hey, you better leave me alone, when I'm all by myself, no I don't need you
Drinkin' away all my problems, I promise you I cannot teach you
Stuck inside my head without a way that you can impact me
Tossing in my bed, I feel the devil throwing sins at me
What should I do? Should I run away?
That's impossible 'cause it comes with me
Everyday I wish I can take it all back, but I can't 'cause right now, I'm intact with (Depression)
[Verse 3: Kamikazi]
Shit
What's it all mean, the broke and the more evolved but its haunted effectively birthin' Kazi
We patient wait in this lobby, is all this because he prolly
Been sleepin', weakened from evil, no heroes, heathens, they got me
You mortal sheep full of somethin'
Live from faith and abundance
Often fake for the friendship but soon forget when there's trouble
And soon I build up the power, reduce a mountain to rubble
No one to pick up the pieces or reinforce the rebuttal
On the shuttle to Hell if I ever jump in these puddles
I'm motivated to better myself, instead I [fought ?] puzzles
Subtle [in the ?] beginning but now I see I'm my mother
I guess I knew I was different and ever since, I would stutter
Motherfuck your opinion
Demons dance with a vengeance
Some are convinced by existence was centered in my progression
I don't do well with these people, the probability's endless
You won't have to see prison you ever live with (Depression)
[Interlude 3]
I'm not like them
This wall I've crafted so carefully is insurmountable
I see them as flickering colors each leaping and dancing and hurdling towards something better
My mind will not be still
At night, it chatters like a typewriter, I can get on peace
(Depression)
[Chorus: Marco Park$]
Hey, you better leave me alone, when I'm all by myself, no I don't need you
Drinkin' away all my problems, I promise you I cannot teach you
Stuck inside my head without a way that you can impact me
Tossing in my bed, I feel the devil throwing sins at me
What should I do? Should I run away?
That's impossible 'cause it comes with me
Everyday I wish I can take it all back, but I can't 'cause right now, I'm intact with (Depression)
[Outro]
I am nothing
I am nobody
Faces
So many Faces
Each turn their eyes arrow sharp
I ache to connect with them
To warm myself in the fire of their friendship
And yet, at the very same second, I flee
Retreat further into the internal wasteland
(Depression)
[Verse 1: Kamikazi]
Shit
If you don't have it, you don't know about it
I'mma get in music on my inner demons 'fore I have to come and put a rope around it
If you really feel me and your mental cloudy, better raise up
(Is this a dream)
Be careful, it's really contagious
Though some of those demons you can't run
[?] hang out
[Their severance ?] daily, it maybe is one of the only reasons I can say sum'n
Don't let me surrender, I gave up
Did somebody try to say sum'n
With my homies now I'm by my lonely turn their income into pain numbs
I be disappointed 'cause the shit's [alone ?] and now the game's up
I don't really have friends now
Dressin' like I've been banged up
But in [?] dickies I'm the same [cow ?]
Motherfuck ya
This, that, so [rap on ?] you busters
Better leave me up out of the fuckery, opened a whole can of these dusters
I'm my own worst enemy, I don't need y'all for nothin'
In my own world I come out to play
But I recognize this demon in me is more than I can be
So I guess that it's here to stay
(Depression)
[Interlude 1]
I stare through this unbreakable glass and my reflection stares back
A pale ghost, just watching and waiting
I want to cower but my fury keeps me walking
I'm anchored to these thoughts, these places I wish I'd never known
I'm not like them
(Depression)
[Chorus: Marco Park$]
Hey, you better leave me alone, when I'm all by myself, no I don't need you
Drinkin' away all my problems, I promise you I cannot teach you
Stuck inside my head without a way that you can impact me
Tossing in my bed, I feel the Devil throwing sins at me
What should I do? Should I run away?
That's impossible 'cause it comes with me
Everyday I wish I can take it all back, but I can't 'cause right now, I'm intact with (Depression)
[Verse 2: Kamikazi]
Shit
I'm sorry if you really love me
But everybody's body language tellin' me I ain't nothin' but ugly
I be feelin' your energy, trust me
I can't [pretend ?] when you hug me
I guess I'm just like my momma, I don't need y'all if you don't want me
I was just innocent Kyle, happy and smile but underneath I wasn't laughing out loud
Somethin' lurkin' is attacking me now
Why the fuck are people mad at me now?
[Hate ?] you by association, wait a minute, I don't got no limitations
I can levitate into another level, but I face the devil on occasion
I'm semi-demonic, if that's a problem [with my seven demon litigation ?]
Is Heaven hollow? I'ma hit the bottle
Hope my grandma hear me, I'll be waitin'
See the beast here you've created?
I'm screamin' out "Fuck the world and every mother fucker that made it"
I don't wanna know what I just handled life
I'm down and out, I'm tryna get it right
When life was good, I wasn't out the woods
I really try to get a little piece of light
But I'm over problems, I just wanna fight
I keep on pushin' like a motor bike
I'm runnin' circles 'til I pull the curtains 'cause my brain is workin' when I'm home at night
I'm my own worst enemy, I don't need y'all for nothin'
In my own world I come out to play
But I recognize this demon in me is more than I can be
So I guess that it's here to stay (Depression)
[Interlude 2]
I'm wary of this world and I barely even scratched the surface
Some days everything is so slow
I see it as though I'm drowning
There's an emptiness inside me
A hollow hole where happiness once was, a void, a wasteland
(Depression)
[Chorus: Marco Park$]
Hey, you better leave me alone, when I'm all by myself, no I don't need you
Drinkin' away all my problems, I promise you I cannot teach you
Stuck inside my head without a way that you can impact me
Tossing in my bed, I feel the devil throwing sins at me
What should I do? Should I run away?
That's impossible 'cause it comes with me
Everyday I wish I can take it all back, but I can't 'cause right now, I'm intact with (Depression)
[Verse 3: Kamikazi]
Shit
What's it all mean, the broke and the more evolved but its haunted effectively birthin' Kazi
We patient wait in this lobby, is all this because he prolly
Been sleepin', weakened from evil, no heroes, heathens, they got me
You mortal sheep full of somethin'
Live from faith and abundance
Often fake for the friendship but soon forget when there's trouble
And soon I build up the power, reduce a mountain to rubble
No one to pick up the pieces or reinforce the rebuttal
On the shuttle to Hell if I ever jump in these puddles
I'm motivated to better myself, instead I [fought ?] puzzles
Subtle [in the ?] beginning but now I see I'm my mother
I guess I knew I was different and ever since, I would stutter
Motherfuck your opinion
Demons dance with a vengeance
Some are convinced by existence was centered in my progression
I don't do well with these people, the probability's endless
You won't have to see prison you ever live with (Depression)
[Interlude 3]
I'm not like them
This wall I've crafted so carefully is insurmountable
I see them as flickering colors each leaping and dancing and hurdling towards something better
My mind will not be still
At night, it chatters like a typewriter, I can get on peace
(Depression)
[Chorus: Marco Park$]
Hey, you better leave me alone, when I'm all by myself, no I don't need you
Drinkin' away all my problems, I promise you I cannot teach you
Stuck inside my head without a way that you can impact me
Tossing in my bed, I feel the devil throwing sins at me
What should I do? Should I run away?
That's impossible 'cause it comes with me
Everyday I wish I can take it all back, but I can't 'cause right now, I'm intact with (Depression)
[Outro]
I am nothing
I am nobody