Disorderly by Kameron Tovey Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Prevent my own sleep
Producing pretended parables in my mind
Give into defeat
To grasp a grain of gratitude for my time
I don't want to be here, it doesn't feel right
But maybe if I trick myself I can get over this fright
[Chorus]
It's disorderly of me
To disengage from conversation when I feel the need
It's controlling me I feel
The echoing, it stops the flow, my thoughts are hindering
If I just became ordinary
I could live my life so differently
It's disorderly of me
To be the person I was born to be
[Verse 2]
My thoughts, they race at a moment's notice
I can never sit down and just smell the roses
My N.M.E. it comes from within
"No more excuses" I can hear it sing
I never get a chance to just catch my breath
Cause every time I try, I blink and forget
This truly agonizing daily struggle
It's just way, way, way too much for me to juggle
[Bridge]
Can't get the words out of my mouth
Can't imagine how many takes this will amount
My lips too slow, or my mind's too quick
All I know is that I stumble, and I look like a prick!
{Chorus}
It's disorderly of me
To disengage from conversation when I feel the need
It's controlling me I feel
The echoing, it stops the flow, my thoughts are hindering
If I just became ordinary
I could live my life so differently
It's disorderly of me
To be the person I was born to be
[Verse 3]
Look in the mirror, and what do I see?
An emotional wreck bursting at the seams
It's like I bottle it up, and I don't even know
Nothing turns to something, and I'm crying alone
I can't leave the house with a level head
The fear of interaction brings me constant dread
It hurts to even think about the things I'll get wrong
But that's exactly why I'm turning all this into a song
[Chorus]
It's disorderly of me
To disengage from conversation when I feel the need
It's controlling me I feel
The echoing, it stops the flow, my thoughts are hindering
If I just became ordinary
I could live my life so differently
It's disorderly of me
To be the person I was born to be
Prevent my own sleep
Producing pretended parables in my mind
Give into defeat
To grasp a grain of gratitude for my time
I don't want to be here, it doesn't feel right
But maybe if I trick myself I can get over this fright
[Chorus]
It's disorderly of me
To disengage from conversation when I feel the need
It's controlling me I feel
The echoing, it stops the flow, my thoughts are hindering
If I just became ordinary
I could live my life so differently
It's disorderly of me
To be the person I was born to be
[Verse 2]
My thoughts, they race at a moment's notice
I can never sit down and just smell the roses
My N.M.E. it comes from within
"No more excuses" I can hear it sing
I never get a chance to just catch my breath
Cause every time I try, I blink and forget
This truly agonizing daily struggle
It's just way, way, way too much for me to juggle
[Bridge]
Can't get the words out of my mouth
Can't imagine how many takes this will amount
My lips too slow, or my mind's too quick
All I know is that I stumble, and I look like a prick!
{Chorus}
It's disorderly of me
To disengage from conversation when I feel the need
It's controlling me I feel
The echoing, it stops the flow, my thoughts are hindering
If I just became ordinary
I could live my life so differently
It's disorderly of me
To be the person I was born to be
[Verse 3]
Look in the mirror, and what do I see?
An emotional wreck bursting at the seams
It's like I bottle it up, and I don't even know
Nothing turns to something, and I'm crying alone
I can't leave the house with a level head
The fear of interaction brings me constant dread
It hurts to even think about the things I'll get wrong
But that's exactly why I'm turning all this into a song
[Chorus]
It's disorderly of me
To disengage from conversation when I feel the need
It's controlling me I feel
The echoing, it stops the flow, my thoughts are hindering
If I just became ordinary
I could live my life so differently
It's disorderly of me
To be the person I was born to be