Heartless by Kade Tomlinson Lyrics
[Verse 1]
And it's always when I'm saddest that my music is the best
Sometimes I wanna die and just leave all these feelings unexpressed
Sometimes I'll show people my music and they just act unimpressed
I'm just so broken from my past that I can't focus on what's next
'Cause I'm tired of the criticism, even the constructive
There's a lot of shit that's going on that makes me feel destructive
I'm deducting that there was a problem when I was constructed
'Cause I know drinking won't fix it, but I see one and say "fuck it"
Now I'm lifted
And all the times that they told me I'm gifted slip away into the darkness as my senses become shifted
I'm in the sunken place, but my mind is steady drifting
To the thoughts I thought I forgot, my foundation is tilted
Now my stomach's in a knot, as I remember the times
That I would promise my momma I would let my light shine
Now I'm here with the bottle, drowning in my sorrow
Drunk as hell, knowing deep down it'll all be here tomorrow
[Chorus]
[Part 1]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
Since you turned into a stranger, my whole life has turned to strange
So I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Part 2]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
If I could see my little bro again, I'd throw away the fame
But I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Verse 2]
I'm sorry mom, I swear I never meant to hurt you
If I could press rewind, this time I won't desert you
If I could test my worth, I'll show you heaven on this earth
So if alive or in the dirt, I swear you'll be my first
Priority before the hurt, for better or for worse
But when I see you in the hearse, I know I'll be immersed
In selfish pain that I inflicted on myself
It's so insane, I stay addicted to the wealth
Now I'll swallow anything, just in hopes that it would help
Possibly relieve the pain, I've bestowed upon myself
This is driving me insane, Lord protect me down in hell
I just know Heaven ain't for me 'cause of curses I was dealt
I am in a mental cell
For now it's where I'll dwell
But mom if I could try again, I'd tell you how I felt
You were always sure to put me ahead of putting yourself
I'm just sorry for the pain because of me that you had felt
[Chorus]
[Part 1]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
Since you turned into a stranger, my whole life has turned to strange
So I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Part 2]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
If I could see my little bro again, I'd throw away the fame
But I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Verse 3]
Typical, I used to be invincible
But now I'm facing all these problems that make me question my principles
I had a lot of good homies flip like some reciprocals
Now I'm here, by myself just picking up residuals
It seems to me my parents' secrecy was detrimental
And feasibly, I have seamlessly become disassembled
I'm feeling mental, because my support is diminished
I journey on this road, and hope the fork in it has been banished
Mentally, all my days are just a dark mess
With everything that's happened, barely have a heart left
This life I'm living really has me feeling hard pressed
So I'm not heartless, I'm just tryna use my heart less
And it's always when I'm saddest that my music is the best
Sometimes I wanna die and just leave all these feelings unexpressed
Sometimes I'll show people my music and they just act unimpressed
I'm just so broken from my past that I can't focus on what's next
'Cause I'm tired of the criticism, even the constructive
There's a lot of shit that's going on that makes me feel destructive
I'm deducting that there was a problem when I was constructed
'Cause I know drinking won't fix it, but I see one and say "fuck it"
Now I'm lifted
And all the times that they told me I'm gifted slip away into the darkness as my senses become shifted
I'm in the sunken place, but my mind is steady drifting
To the thoughts I thought I forgot, my foundation is tilted
Now my stomach's in a knot, as I remember the times
That I would promise my momma I would let my light shine
Now I'm here with the bottle, drowning in my sorrow
Drunk as hell, knowing deep down it'll all be here tomorrow
[Chorus]
[Part 1]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
Since you turned into a stranger, my whole life has turned to strange
So I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Part 2]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
If I could see my little bro again, I'd throw away the fame
But I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Verse 2]
I'm sorry mom, I swear I never meant to hurt you
If I could press rewind, this time I won't desert you
If I could test my worth, I'll show you heaven on this earth
So if alive or in the dirt, I swear you'll be my first
Priority before the hurt, for better or for worse
But when I see you in the hearse, I know I'll be immersed
In selfish pain that I inflicted on myself
It's so insane, I stay addicted to the wealth
Now I'll swallow anything, just in hopes that it would help
Possibly relieve the pain, I've bestowed upon myself
This is driving me insane, Lord protect me down in hell
I just know Heaven ain't for me 'cause of curses I was dealt
I am in a mental cell
For now it's where I'll dwell
But mom if I could try again, I'd tell you how I felt
You were always sure to put me ahead of putting yourself
I'm just sorry for the pain because of me that you had felt
[Chorus]
[Part 1]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
Since you turned into a stranger, my whole life has turned to strange
So I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Part 2]
It's just the same old shit, every day, nothing's changed
If I could see my little bro again, I'd throw away the fame
But I'm here, by myself, hoping that something will change
Using the bottom of bottles as a remedy for pain
[Verse 3]
Typical, I used to be invincible
But now I'm facing all these problems that make me question my principles
I had a lot of good homies flip like some reciprocals
Now I'm here, by myself just picking up residuals
It seems to me my parents' secrecy was detrimental
And feasibly, I have seamlessly become disassembled
I'm feeling mental, because my support is diminished
I journey on this road, and hope the fork in it has been banished
Mentally, all my days are just a dark mess
With everything that's happened, barely have a heart left
This life I'm living really has me feeling hard pressed
So I'm not heartless, I'm just tryna use my heart less