I need to be loved rn. . . by KK99 Lyrics
(Verse 1)
There once was a day without pain without suffer
Oh how I thought that I would still be younger
I prolly lied to myself when I said I won't trust them
But now I’m blinded by darkness I can't see much longer
As the days went by I cried and I cried
I keep drinking them bottles hoping not to be alive
I took pills for the very first time and then it hit me why do I need to be alive
(Verse 2)
Coming home to nobody is just a regular thing cos nobody was never there for me so I can't feel from within
My blood ran through my veins and I wished that all can go away but there was always someone in my mind that couldn’t really fade
And I , hurt so much that I, can't feel no more and I, drugged myself alot, can't really think no more
(Verse 3)
Back then when I had friends in middle school
I'd be laughing and shit getting comfortable
But now all I see is red and I be crying pools
Turns out I never had no friends and I'd be getting fooled
My momma always says that it's okay it's okay
Maybe because she doesn't seem to care and just go away
My dad never came back that day cos all this time he was in a game
You see growing up without parents can be so hard
Cos all I want to do is share my fucking heart
I’ve been in drugs and in fights that I didn’t wanna start
But no one ever loved me so I'm falling apart
And I , hurt so much that I, can’t feel no more and I, drugged myself alot, can't really think no more
(verse 4)
Last but not least these words are for him
The one that I thought that was stuck with me through thick and thin
Liar and cheater was a game he'd been playing but never once realized that he'd always have a glimpse
He’s too much he's too cute he's too funny too absolute , he's too handsome he's too rad too this and too that
Words slipping from my mouth
Giving a description of what he's about but he got that demon in him that fucks me over and the last reason I'd be sucking on clovers
And I , hurt so much that I, can't feel no more and I, drugged myself alot, can't really think no more
There once was a day without pain without suffer
Oh how I thought that I would still be younger
I prolly lied to myself when I said I won't trust them
But now I’m blinded by darkness I can't see much longer
As the days went by I cried and I cried
I keep drinking them bottles hoping not to be alive
I took pills for the very first time and then it hit me why do I need to be alive
(Verse 2)
Coming home to nobody is just a regular thing cos nobody was never there for me so I can't feel from within
My blood ran through my veins and I wished that all can go away but there was always someone in my mind that couldn’t really fade
And I , hurt so much that I, can't feel no more and I, drugged myself alot, can't really think no more
(Verse 3)
Back then when I had friends in middle school
I'd be laughing and shit getting comfortable
But now all I see is red and I be crying pools
Turns out I never had no friends and I'd be getting fooled
My momma always says that it's okay it's okay
Maybe because she doesn't seem to care and just go away
My dad never came back that day cos all this time he was in a game
You see growing up without parents can be so hard
Cos all I want to do is share my fucking heart
I’ve been in drugs and in fights that I didn’t wanna start
But no one ever loved me so I'm falling apart
And I , hurt so much that I, can’t feel no more and I, drugged myself alot, can't really think no more
(verse 4)
Last but not least these words are for him
The one that I thought that was stuck with me through thick and thin
Liar and cheater was a game he'd been playing but never once realized that he'd always have a glimpse
He’s too much he's too cute he's too funny too absolute , he's too handsome he's too rad too this and too that
Words slipping from my mouth
Giving a description of what he's about but he got that demon in him that fucks me over and the last reason I'd be sucking on clovers
And I , hurt so much that I, can't feel no more and I, drugged myself alot, can't really think no more