Death Touch by K-Odd-ik Lyrics

[Verse 1: K-Odd-ik]
I don't wanna say that I'm afraid
But I'm afraid fear has got me feeling like a slave
To anxiety and it's got me feeling like I'm caged
Can't be around people without feeling like I'm strange
Don't wanna change that's what scares me the most
Be the one that ain't nobody care if I'm a ghost
It's like my mind thinks shit just to hold it against me
Throw it in my face just to close in and fence me
You'll never be good enough your always gonna fail
You'll reach for your goals but you'll never prevail
Set sail for the island of isolation
Freezing up man, my mind is in hibernation
A fucking mess not feeling I'm gonna make it
You can expect another suicide in the making
But fuck it, man, I'll just keep drowning in my pity
Look for an answer and I found it man I'm quitting

[Hook:]
You probably don't wanna touch me
Created from your words worthless and ugly
I always got these damn black clouds above me
Why should you be allowed to judge me?
Said you probably don't wanna touch me
I tend to hurt everyone that loves me
Everything I lay my hands on turns to nothing
So why the fuck would anybody ever trust me
[Verse 2: K-Odd-ik]
This is it I've had enough of this shit
Destroyed myself and now I'm stuck in this pit
Life, in general, I ain't having luck with this shit
Could never fit in I'm just a fucking misfit
Missed it all the chances I had are gone
No one's fault but own I'm not getting mad at god
More problems pile up fuck it add em on
Some people see the good but I only see the bad and wrong
Approach slow and proceed with caution
No hope for me I've exceeded my options
That's why I'm always down and seeming exhausted
Snapping for no reason I freaking have lost it
Here I am feeling all alone again
Tell depression I'm coming home again
All these feelings deep down that I hold within
Bout to make me explode like you pulled the pin

[Hook:]
You probably don't wanna touch me
Created from your words worthless and ugly
I always got these damn black clouds above me
Why should you be allowed to judge me?
Said you probably don't wanna touch me
I tend to hurt everyone that loves me
Everything I lay my hands on turns to nothing
So why the fuck would anybody ever trust me
[Interlude: Psycho-T]
You know, I can't fucking cope
I always fuck shit up
What the fuck am I even doing here?
Fuck it

[Verse 3: Psycho-T]
Who the fuck cares if I fade away?
Everyone just leaves me anyway everyday
Years of anxiety is fucking me up
Everyone around me gets corrupt
Let me be in my own little bubble
'Cause if you don't - you'll be in trouble
I tend to fuck everything up, I'm a fuck up
I make a mistake and I break down, fuck...
I don't know what to do
Whenever I'm down I wanna choose
An option to leave this Earth
Being around me will just fuck you up worse
Stay away and you'll be good now
I'm surrounded by darkness and black clouds
Load up the gat, put it to my chin
Tonight is it, I'll see y'all in the end

[Hook:]
You probably don't wanna touch me
Created from your words worthless and ugly
I always got these damn black clouds above me
Why should you be allowed to judge me?
Said you probably don't wanna touch me
I tend to hurt everyone that loves me
Everything I lay my hands on turns to nothing
So why the fuck would anybody ever trust me
[Outro: K-Odd-ik]
I'm just trying to figure out why everything I touch seems to just wither away and die
It just seems cruel
This life, man, it doesn't seem worth it sometimes
K-Odd-ik, The Pit, 2018
Still at this shit for better or worse