Chin Up by K-Odd-ik Lyrics
[Verse 1:]
Lately, I don't have the audacity
The right mind state or the mental capacity
To deal with this life and the shit that it's cast at me
Lotta stress but I guess that's the way that it has to be
My peers lash at me, gawk and laugh at me
Even when my girl cracks a joke it smashes me
Shit has broken me down to the point I'm attached to the
Sadness that's crafted me depression thats grasps me
I don't wanna be happy, I like the dark
I'll just wallow in my problems, this life is harsh
If I self-harm I'll just hide the scars
They're nothing compared to the ones inside my heart
I've battled demons, harassin screamin
They tell me to chin up but I don't have the reason
I'd rather die and I have to leave this
Battlefield called life, I've been smashed to pieces
[Hook:]
They tell me to chin up, so I put my chin up
Put the gun under it I just wanna give up
I've set my expactations and I can't live up
I've fallen on the concrete I don't wanna get up
My heads dragging on the ground don't wanna pick the shit up
This depression on my chest just won't let up
Lately I've been thinking I shoud pick a cigarette up
This life is just too much and I'm so fed up
[Verse 2:]
This life takes my breath away, hacking and choking
Happily soaking in my own pool of self-loathing
It's dripping from my body and it's dripping from my clothing
Spreading and growing no wonder they're scolding
They see what I'm molding into's approaching
My back slopes I'm a ghost and I walk around moaping
But they don't see my heart and the pain I'm holding
They don't wanna feel my pain so the world's opposing
The mindstate I'm living in now is deadly
I wanna kill myself but the world won't let me
But I know if I did everyone would forget me
Sooner or later and then they'd just regret me
They just upset me they won't respect me
They hate to see the good so they just neglect me
They're wrongful opinions have officially wrecked me
This feeling of loneliness has now possessed me
[Hook]
[Verse 3:]
Wake up in the middle of the night in a panic
Sweating and crying as always cause I'm manic
Depressive, yet it feels so organic
It explodes and corrodes cause it's so volcanic
Living in this fuck life mindstate is dangerous
You can smell the scent of suicide it's so vaprous
I picture thoughts of suicide they're so heinous
I go through this shit on a daily basis
Look at my heart can you see the blemishes
You can tell by the negative energy in the premesis
And as soon as I'm happy the sadness replenishes
They tell me I got problems and they put me on medicine
And these dark thoughts pop in my head again
They try to get inside my mind but I won't let em in
Because in a strange way I'm happy in the mindset I'm in
That's why I'm isolated and I'll probably never get a friend
[Hook]
Lately, I don't have the audacity
The right mind state or the mental capacity
To deal with this life and the shit that it's cast at me
Lotta stress but I guess that's the way that it has to be
My peers lash at me, gawk and laugh at me
Even when my girl cracks a joke it smashes me
Shit has broken me down to the point I'm attached to the
Sadness that's crafted me depression thats grasps me
I don't wanna be happy, I like the dark
I'll just wallow in my problems, this life is harsh
If I self-harm I'll just hide the scars
They're nothing compared to the ones inside my heart
I've battled demons, harassin screamin
They tell me to chin up but I don't have the reason
I'd rather die and I have to leave this
Battlefield called life, I've been smashed to pieces
[Hook:]
They tell me to chin up, so I put my chin up
Put the gun under it I just wanna give up
I've set my expactations and I can't live up
I've fallen on the concrete I don't wanna get up
My heads dragging on the ground don't wanna pick the shit up
This depression on my chest just won't let up
Lately I've been thinking I shoud pick a cigarette up
This life is just too much and I'm so fed up
[Verse 2:]
This life takes my breath away, hacking and choking
Happily soaking in my own pool of self-loathing
It's dripping from my body and it's dripping from my clothing
Spreading and growing no wonder they're scolding
They see what I'm molding into's approaching
My back slopes I'm a ghost and I walk around moaping
But they don't see my heart and the pain I'm holding
They don't wanna feel my pain so the world's opposing
The mindstate I'm living in now is deadly
I wanna kill myself but the world won't let me
But I know if I did everyone would forget me
Sooner or later and then they'd just regret me
They just upset me they won't respect me
They hate to see the good so they just neglect me
They're wrongful opinions have officially wrecked me
This feeling of loneliness has now possessed me
[Hook]
[Verse 3:]
Wake up in the middle of the night in a panic
Sweating and crying as always cause I'm manic
Depressive, yet it feels so organic
It explodes and corrodes cause it's so volcanic
Living in this fuck life mindstate is dangerous
You can smell the scent of suicide it's so vaprous
I picture thoughts of suicide they're so heinous
I go through this shit on a daily basis
Look at my heart can you see the blemishes
You can tell by the negative energy in the premesis
And as soon as I'm happy the sadness replenishes
They tell me I got problems and they put me on medicine
And these dark thoughts pop in my head again
They try to get inside my mind but I won't let em in
Because in a strange way I'm happy in the mindset I'm in
That's why I'm isolated and I'll probably never get a friend
[Hook]