God I Really Wish I Hated You by Jessica Taylor Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Spilled some unfulfillment all over my shirt
Please excuse me while I brush off all the dirt
Got some envy on my sneakers, but I kinda like the tint
Think it really brings out eyes that sag with hurt
See how I will twist and turn and bend
Taking shape of what I think will get me friends
And I’ll hear them singing songs that don’t appeal to me at all
And learn the lyrics but they’re sick of it by then
[Chorus]
Oh god, I really wish I hated you
Some days I do
But it always fades to warmth
And I crave the laughter too, my mind is always back and forth
Really wish I hated you
Then maybe pain would taste a bit less sweet
And flowers would stop springing from the cuts you dig in me
[Post-Chorus]
Unknowingly
So deathly careless that you’re blind to how I bleed
And it’s for you
A constant slew of thick desire
It gets messy, makes it hard to even breathe
And what am I, but a kid that’s just a little too shy?
And who am I, if not unsure?
[Verse 2]
Please be gentle with my heart today
I’ll be sick just at the thought of what you’ll say
I don’t know which one is worse, laughing about, laughing without
But I suppose that you’ll be laughing either way
[Chorus]
Oh god, I really wish I hated you
Some days I do
But it always fades to warmth
And I crave the laughter too, my mind is always back and forth
Really wish I hated you
Then maybe pain would taste a bit less sweet
And flowers would stop springing from the cuts you dig in me
[Bridge]
Unknowingly
Across the room, bet it’s invigorating
Hearing you, it’s nauseating
Bleed, don’t let me bleed
Encapsulated in the loveliness
And wrapped in vines all closing in on me
[Chorus]
Oh god, I really wish I hated you
Some days I do
But it always fades to warmth
And I crave the laughter too, my mind is always back and forth
Really wish I hated you
Then maybe pain would taste a bit less sweet
And flowers would stop springing from the cuts you dig in me
[Post-Chorus]
Unknowingly
So deathly careless that you’re blind to how I bleed
And it’s for you
A constant slew of thick desire
It gets messy, makes it hard to even breathe
And what am I, but a kid that’s just a little too shy?
And who am I, if not unsure?
Spilled some unfulfillment all over my shirt
Please excuse me while I brush off all the dirt
Got some envy on my sneakers, but I kinda like the tint
Think it really brings out eyes that sag with hurt
See how I will twist and turn and bend
Taking shape of what I think will get me friends
And I’ll hear them singing songs that don’t appeal to me at all
And learn the lyrics but they’re sick of it by then
[Chorus]
Oh god, I really wish I hated you
Some days I do
But it always fades to warmth
And I crave the laughter too, my mind is always back and forth
Really wish I hated you
Then maybe pain would taste a bit less sweet
And flowers would stop springing from the cuts you dig in me
[Post-Chorus]
Unknowingly
So deathly careless that you’re blind to how I bleed
And it’s for you
A constant slew of thick desire
It gets messy, makes it hard to even breathe
And what am I, but a kid that’s just a little too shy?
And who am I, if not unsure?
[Verse 2]
Please be gentle with my heart today
I’ll be sick just at the thought of what you’ll say
I don’t know which one is worse, laughing about, laughing without
But I suppose that you’ll be laughing either way
[Chorus]
Oh god, I really wish I hated you
Some days I do
But it always fades to warmth
And I crave the laughter too, my mind is always back and forth
Really wish I hated you
Then maybe pain would taste a bit less sweet
And flowers would stop springing from the cuts you dig in me
[Bridge]
Unknowingly
Across the room, bet it’s invigorating
Hearing you, it’s nauseating
Bleed, don’t let me bleed
Encapsulated in the loveliness
And wrapped in vines all closing in on me
[Chorus]
Oh god, I really wish I hated you
Some days I do
But it always fades to warmth
And I crave the laughter too, my mind is always back and forth
Really wish I hated you
Then maybe pain would taste a bit less sweet
And flowers would stop springing from the cuts you dig in me
[Post-Chorus]
Unknowingly
So deathly careless that you’re blind to how I bleed
And it’s for you
A constant slew of thick desire
It gets messy, makes it hard to even breathe
And what am I, but a kid that’s just a little too shy?
And who am I, if not unsure?