Substantial Guilt vs. The Irony of Enjoying by Ion Dissonance Lyrics

And I

And I lay numb
Waiting for something worst to happen
Sweet innocence
It happened so suddenly

She crossed my path
On the way to nothingness
I knew that I was encountering
An angel of Purity
And in the process, I've quickly understood
That I dont deserve her
None of us humans do

Beholding such a fatality leaves you empty with bitter grief
Life seems to be tarnished and sour, raped in its very essence
But sorrow is rapidly replaced by frustration, envy, and despair

Dressed in white
A child so alone
So fragile and beautiful has dawn
To hold her close was exhilarating in a most vicious way
I felt so weak
Yet empowered somehow
One thing leading to another, I knew then
That if I could not experience nor possess Purity
I would at least try to take it and choke the life out of it

And I did
Oh, why
I don't know but I did

Violently, I've pummelled her face with my bare fists until she became awfully deformed
Bleeding and dying, all twisted up in terror

I have forcefully replaced every teeth in her mouth
By razorsharp shards of glass
Slowly inserting every piece
Of glass in the little one's gum

Why was I laughing?
Why was I laughing?
Why was I laughing?
Why... was I laughing?
Why?
In complete disharmony with her screams

I guess that is my art
To inflict upon Purity the only thing I can give
And, unfortunately, it's not love
I should've feel guilty, I know
But it simply didn't occur