Counting Stones by Hemming Lyrics

Is there something that I can't see?
Something that just keeps haunting me
A stranger to the backs of my hands
So hard to explain, when you don't understand
No I don't know what I'm doing
Tell me what I've become
Cause I'm taking myself for granted
So scared I'm giving up
I never thought that you could love me
I never know what I deserve
I reach for things so far above me
To find out what I'm worth
This time, I want to break
This time, I want to break
I can see right through the ground
And I'm counting every single stone
That’s how far I let you get me down
I'm not giving up, I'm letting go
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I can't go through this again
I'm not sure I could ever love you
The way I always did
This time, I want you to break
This time, I want you to break
Cause I've held my head up for so long
I've had all I can take
This time, I want you to break
I won't allow myself to tell you
I won't allow myself to trust you
I won't allow myself to give in
I can't allow myself to love you
The walls are falling down around us
The walls are falling down again
I won't allow myself to tell you
But I don't want to see the end
This time, I want to break
This time, I want you to break
This time, I want it all to break