How I Wanna Die by Hamell on Trial Lyrics

I been thinkin' 'bout how I wanna die
How I want to close my eyes
How I wanna let my spirit fly
How I want to say goodbye
How to end so many tries
And lift my soul up to the sky
And surrender to the world on high
As my body in the Earth could lie

And I don't wanna die in an old folks home
And I don't wanna die living all alone
And I don't wanna die drinkin' in the chair
And I don't wanna die before my underwear
And I don't wanna die with a foot on my neck
And I don't wanna die graspin' for a check
And I don't wanna die due to gross neglect
Been a hell of a ride with no regrets

I walked I flew I rowed I sailed
Lied I cried I tried I wailed
Shoved I loved I creamed I screamed
I roared I soared I scored I dreamed
Closed I dozed I froze I posed
And then I chose to fly and rose
With wings and things, heard angels sing
I ate with paupers, dined with kings
How I wanna die
Inevitable
How I wanna die, yeah
Inevitable

I been thinkin' about the things I've done
And all the pain and all the fun
And all the nights and all the suns
And all the riches, all the cum
Every broken bone and every smile
Chalked up to a wisdom mile
Chalked up to a unique style
Chalked up to no rank and file

And I don't wanna die on perfect meat
And I don't wanna die with velvet feet
And I don't wanna die all warm and safe
And I don't wanna die with a pristine grave
Don't wanna die with the wish-I'd-dones
And don't wanna die with the missed-out funs
Might not die the most popular one
Just might die number one unsung

I bawled I called I drawled I stalled
I flew I knew when duty called
Malled I halled I stood appalled
Unclothed I rose each time I fall
Cried I died I fried I lied
I'm bent I lent I'm malcontent
I burned I learned I squirmed I churned
I yearned to jerk all heaven sent
How I wanna die
Inevitable
How I wanna die, yeah
Inevitable

I been thinkin' about my bucket list
And all the things that I ain't missed
All the times I met the fist
And all the times that I got pissed
All the gals I couldn't resist
And saw the souls that did exist
And how I wanna die, well catch my gist
I insist and I persist

I wanna die screamin' three two power
Wanna know love till the final hour
I wanna die singin' one last song
I wanna die rightin' one last wrong
I wanna die when my soul is fulfilled
I wanna die when my hatred's killed
I wanna die when my chord is pure
I wanna die when I find the cure

I fought I sought I couldn't be bought
They fought they taught it came to naught
Wrung I flung I stung I hung
I almost fell prey to the liar's gun
Thanked I pranked I cranked I sank
I dug their sluts so I did spank
Obscene I screamed I cleaned I mean
My self esteem beam when I dream
How I wanna die
Inevitable
How I wanna die, yeah
Inevitable

Wanna die leaving no stone unturned
No mistake unlearned
Takin' every chance
Doin' every dance
And knowin' deep inside
I enjoyed that ride