To Wash Away A Human Stain by Grtfrdig Lyrics

I’ve wasted my entire youth numbing myself
Night after night, I’m losing sight through my tears
Drowning my words in the back of my throat
Swallowing every chance of rejection
And now I sit in this silent home wondering where my life went
Forgiveness is not going to bring back my wasted youth
Or failed chances
I stare out of the window
But cannot reach beyond these confining walls
It’s useless

I wish on raindrops to wash away my human stain
I feel further away from those things that I’ve wished for
I feel further away from what it meant to live
Why? Why? Why me?
Why?
I don’t know how to make things bеtter
How to break free from this listless anxiеty
I will watch this life move on without me
And in my absence their lives will still move on
Without me
Ensam i mitt rum får jag skydd från regnets hånande droppar
När molnen skingras igen, vet jag att mitt väsen försvinner in i dimmornas land