This Isnt Living by Grtfrdig Lyrics

It’s quiet again tonight
My room reeks of wine;
Languid from the oppressive summer heat
Isolating myself from this dirty city
Mislaying my vigor in an alcoholic stupor
This isn't living

This lightness is all we have
And I’ve done nothing but waste each night
In my room with the company of a bottle
Glimpsing into the lives of people I don't even know
I keep telling myself that there must be more to this life than drinking and loneliness
I am trying to make whatever life I have left bearable
But this weight of regret gives way to resignation

No matter how hard I try it may not be worth it in the end
It may not be worth it in the end