Absence by Ground Tracer Lyrics

I've been absent I'm no where to be found Can you see me? I feel invisible You told me to always be myself But lately all i've felt is like I'm somebody else Same old me, same old me Believing that I was immune to never failing Same old me, same old me Thinking that I can get away with everything Too scared to the tell the truth so my conscience told me to lie Always trying to sneak my way out of this one But enough is enough I feel like I let the whole fucking world down I'm sorry mom and dad for putting you through hell This is my apology for not being myself Where did I go wrong, where did I lose myself? I don't know If I can hold on any longer But I'm trying just for you For everything that you've done for me I owe it to you Take me home, I hate being alone I just need to get out, out from his shadow I just need some help mom and dad You raised me better than anyone else ever could have and I'm sorry that this is the way I re-payed you for that After all these years of learning your ways I somehow got stuck in between who I want to be because who I am is not who I should be (I'm sorry) When I think back to the days when I was younger I promised myself when I grew up that I wouldn't end up like this But I broke my promise Will you ever forgive me for losing myself Or will I just be another silent echo of your memory I'm stuck living in someone else's shadows That's why I hate everything about who I am now