Wayward son by Godinho Lyrics
[Verse]
I was born an addict, obsessed with the pain
I sat inside and preferred to just stay and watch the rain
I'm my own cause of my trauma
I tried to blame it on the world tried to blame it on my ex-girl
But she didn't do a damn thing like
I went behind her back because I wanted more lust
I cheated and I lied
I stole and I lied
I was doing everything I could to start feeling alive
I was a thief I abused her I was a liar I destroyed her
She gave me 1000 chances to be a healer but I was born a destroyer
Maybe I wasn't born anything, maybe I'm just rotten to the core
A byproduct of my evil
It gets hard to rhyme with how blurred these lines are
I keep crying while I'm driving
I wake up every day wishing I was dying
I was happy for a while but I feel it getting worse
I want to meet a girl, move away to another state
To another place, cut off all my friends
So they'll never know where I stay, leave without a trace
And speaking of friends doesn't feel like I want them anymore
Violent outbursts causing fire and some more like
I'm tired of people I'm tired of the socials
I'm tired of waking up every day pretending to be social
I'm tired, I smoke cigs now, weed doesn't do it anymore
I need liquor I need nicotine to finally drown, drown out the world
Me and medusa or me and the crystal, maybe me and the marionette
You won't get the names anyways they're creations of the shadows
That lay awake in my head
Every day is grey
What the fuck am I even doing anyway?
I'm a black sheep a white crow and all of the above
I'm a corrupted dove, darker than a raven
I feel hunted like I'm the victim of Kraven, no one gets it anymore
But maybe I'm too cold for them to try and understand it anymore
I'm a burden, carrying the weight of 100 lost souls
People who wanted to die
But I stopped them from collecting their toll
They've moved on and I can't complain
I'm happy that they're happy but I'm mad at their pain
They didn't stop it, they just gave it to me
And the day they realize that maybe I'll finally be happy
Who am I kidding?
I was born an addict, obsessed with the pain
I sat inside and preferred to just stay and watch the rain
I'm my own cause of my trauma
I tried to blame it on the world tried to blame it on my ex-girl
But she didn't do a damn thing like
I went behind her back because I wanted more lust
I cheated and I lied
I stole and I lied
I was doing everything I could to start feeling alive
I was a thief I abused her I was a liar I destroyed her
She gave me 1000 chances to be a healer but I was born a destroyer
Maybe I wasn't born anything, maybe I'm just rotten to the core
A byproduct of my evil
It gets hard to rhyme with how blurred these lines are
I keep crying while I'm driving
I wake up every day wishing I was dying
I was happy for a while but I feel it getting worse
I want to meet a girl, move away to another state
To another place, cut off all my friends
So they'll never know where I stay, leave without a trace
And speaking of friends doesn't feel like I want them anymore
Violent outbursts causing fire and some more like
I'm tired of people I'm tired of the socials
I'm tired of waking up every day pretending to be social
I'm tired, I smoke cigs now, weed doesn't do it anymore
I need liquor I need nicotine to finally drown, drown out the world
Me and medusa or me and the crystal, maybe me and the marionette
You won't get the names anyways they're creations of the shadows
That lay awake in my head
Every day is grey
What the fuck am I even doing anyway?
I'm a black sheep a white crow and all of the above
I'm a corrupted dove, darker than a raven
I feel hunted like I'm the victim of Kraven, no one gets it anymore
But maybe I'm too cold for them to try and understand it anymore
I'm a burden, carrying the weight of 100 lost souls
People who wanted to die
But I stopped them from collecting their toll
They've moved on and I can't complain
I'm happy that they're happy but I'm mad at their pain
They didn't stop it, they just gave it to me
And the day they realize that maybe I'll finally be happy
Who am I kidding?