BORDERLINE by Godinho Lyrics
[Intro]
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned, it's been 6 months since my last confession, here goes:
[Verse]
I'm a liar I'm a thief and I'm a cheat
I'm a walking mental case with sociopathic tendencies
I'm a nymphomaniac addicted to the chaos that I cause
I'm an addict to the havoc, I have Borderline Personality Disorder
Call me toxic, call me evil, call me a disappointment
I'm a wolf hiding in the sheep's skin, that's all I'll ever be
The bad wolf is the only one I feed and I'm
Tired of all the pain that I cause, I'm sorry to every single person
I have lost, I brought you into this carousel of madness
With the mirror in the middle that reflects my flaws, and I'm sorry
Brianna that I did what I did, even though you'll never trust me again
I bleed into this pen showing all of you my scars
And the demons that grip me with their claws every day is the same
Rain it's the same pain, all these days are full of grey
Everyday is the same, out of 7 Deadly Sins all of mine caused pain
All of mine were lust, I would burn every bridge and
Watch it turn to dust, I bought so many different premiums
Nudes, OnlyFans, and snapchats all while cuffed I felt like a muskrat
Started treating my friends like doormats, I became ugly
Ugly to look at, stopped leaving my house I felt like a cavebat
Locusts swarming in my mind like it's a ziggurat
Dr Jekyll, Mr Hyde, I tried to be the doctor but Hyde always took
Over at night, I let evil take my soul knowing it was wrong
Knowing it wasn't right, I don't want pity I don't want forgiveness
I don't want you to fucking feel bad for me I want you to understand
These demons that they talk to me every single day
I can hear their whispers, all I hear is pain, all my smiles are fake
Vultures in my brain, drown me in the lake like Ophelia, I cry tears
Made of sludge as you leave my life and hold a grudge
My soul will be sent to Oblivion where I will be greeted by obsidian
I will shake my hands with the Devil, and he'll send me back to Earth
With a more cursed mental I, dug up my confessions, I married my
Depression, watch as I got consumed by aggression as I started to
Regress, into a shell of my former self, caused by obsession
I'm sick and tired of the pain, sick and tired of the lying
Sick and tired of all the fucking rain and it's all my fault, everyday is
Harder as I slowly start to turn insane. If I could be good, I would
But my malice always asking me if I should that's where it gets hard
That's where I don't know, my entire heart is charred now I'm talking
To a crow. I see the ravens everyday everyday they say the same
That every single day will be the same, everyday I'll live in pain
Everyday I'll live in rain that not once will it ever ever be okay and I
Don't know what to say, all I can really do is wait and
Hope that one day things will get better, but deep down I tell myself
That I know better, I know better
[Outro]
6 Our Father's and 6 Hail Mary's, okay thank you Father, I'll see you in 6 months
Forgive me Father, for I have sinned, it's been 6 months since my last confession, here goes:
[Verse]
I'm a liar I'm a thief and I'm a cheat
I'm a walking mental case with sociopathic tendencies
I'm a nymphomaniac addicted to the chaos that I cause
I'm an addict to the havoc, I have Borderline Personality Disorder
Call me toxic, call me evil, call me a disappointment
I'm a wolf hiding in the sheep's skin, that's all I'll ever be
The bad wolf is the only one I feed and I'm
Tired of all the pain that I cause, I'm sorry to every single person
I have lost, I brought you into this carousel of madness
With the mirror in the middle that reflects my flaws, and I'm sorry
Brianna that I did what I did, even though you'll never trust me again
I bleed into this pen showing all of you my scars
And the demons that grip me with their claws every day is the same
Rain it's the same pain, all these days are full of grey
Everyday is the same, out of 7 Deadly Sins all of mine caused pain
All of mine were lust, I would burn every bridge and
Watch it turn to dust, I bought so many different premiums
Nudes, OnlyFans, and snapchats all while cuffed I felt like a muskrat
Started treating my friends like doormats, I became ugly
Ugly to look at, stopped leaving my house I felt like a cavebat
Locusts swarming in my mind like it's a ziggurat
Dr Jekyll, Mr Hyde, I tried to be the doctor but Hyde always took
Over at night, I let evil take my soul knowing it was wrong
Knowing it wasn't right, I don't want pity I don't want forgiveness
I don't want you to fucking feel bad for me I want you to understand
These demons that they talk to me every single day
I can hear their whispers, all I hear is pain, all my smiles are fake
Vultures in my brain, drown me in the lake like Ophelia, I cry tears
Made of sludge as you leave my life and hold a grudge
My soul will be sent to Oblivion where I will be greeted by obsidian
I will shake my hands with the Devil, and he'll send me back to Earth
With a more cursed mental I, dug up my confessions, I married my
Depression, watch as I got consumed by aggression as I started to
Regress, into a shell of my former self, caused by obsession
I'm sick and tired of the pain, sick and tired of the lying
Sick and tired of all the fucking rain and it's all my fault, everyday is
Harder as I slowly start to turn insane. If I could be good, I would
But my malice always asking me if I should that's where it gets hard
That's where I don't know, my entire heart is charred now I'm talking
To a crow. I see the ravens everyday everyday they say the same
That every single day will be the same, everyday I'll live in pain
Everyday I'll live in rain that not once will it ever ever be okay and I
Don't know what to say, all I can really do is wait and
Hope that one day things will get better, but deep down I tell myself
That I know better, I know better
[Outro]
6 Our Father's and 6 Hail Mary's, okay thank you Father, I'll see you in 6 months