Opening Up by Glass Castles Lyrics

I've been hiding in my mind for far too long
Forcing people out and putting up these walls
I’ve been getting tired of living like this
Dreaming of a life that'll never exist

I'm striving for a crown that’s just gonna wear me down
I'm searching for a purpose but nothing seems worth it
I'm trying to swim but I'm stuck in the undertow
I wanna be cured of these thoughts but I can't let go