Recidivist by Ghost Heart Lyrics

I part these lips
And try to speak
Departing whispers
That turn to screams
And I know it's wrong
But now it seems
These words are falling
Like dying leaves
And one by one
I hold them close to me
Trying to revive them
As the wind blows through the trees
And I hear it cry
It sings to me
But I cannot move
And I cannot breathe

I'm so much more broken
Than I thought I was
I had such high expectations
And faith in my bonds
They're shredded like leaves in the dirt
Once vibrant
Now dead and divided;
These unlit windows
Offer me no solace
I long to sleep
In eternal silence
I thought I was past this
I told her I needed her
But I could feel her pulling back
I can't blame her
I need to do this for myself

There's always the anger
It hasn't softened since
The day that you left me behind
Do you expect me to live for the both of us?
You gave up
You have no right to look down on me

Your eyes are vacant
As you stare at me
And this paranoia
It will not leave
So I'll carve a message
Into the trees
Of all of the words
You never bothered trying to read

And I hear them whispering
And I cannot see
But that's how it's got to be
Back and forth and back and forth;
Trapped in place
That's how it's got to be
It's got to be
Dragged down
In unease
I'll take the fall
Because that's how it's got to be
But I know it's wrong
But that's how it's got to be
Fake smiles and laughter
They were never my friends
They threw a rope to me
Wound of selfishness
I would fall and they would let me
So just let me fall
I deserve this