Goodlake by Ghost Heart Lyrics

I hope this message finds you well
And that you're finally taking care of yourself
I was just thinking about the past
Isn’t it funny how memories are the only things that last?

I'm feeling guilty for the way that I left things off
And with the fact that I didn't take more time
To tell you I love you
And take every chance to embrace you
I so badly want to hear your voice again

I lay awake at night sometimes but I still can’t process
Every thought and emotion that's trapped inside my head
I'm a prisoner every day within myself
Because I didn't ever think that I would lose you

For the moment you left here I became numb
Only breaking in moments when I'm alone
Because that's when I realize
What a fool I have been
And I can never take it back
If I'm being honest
I will never forgive myself
Every chance that I've missed
Is a failure I’ve now felt
I feel like I’ve let you down
It's a shame I bear alone
I’m not asking for forgiveness
Just thought that you should know...

I'll regret this as long as I live
It will hide behind my smile
I don't deserve to have you back
But God how I want that again

I still see you in my mind
I still feel your absence
I just hope you knew I cared
When I couldn't say it
I just hope you understood
What I desperately wanted to convey

I’m counting the days
Remembering every little thing
And the words you spoke to me
I just hope you knew I loved you
Sincerely