Fourteen Fifteen Missing by Freezing Paint Lyrics

And you follow kids you never liked
Who never seemed to treat you right
You go so you won't be alone
So you can feel it set in stone
You go to parties people just
Play shitty tunes and break your trust
Hallucinate that friend and his boyfriend on the couch

And I'm freaking out 'cause I saw an old picture of my mum
When she was young she had a mullet, I felt funny
In my gut 'cause I realized I'm growing up
And all these photos that I take will later be how i used to look

And this is how it goes:
You tear yourself apart to find your home
Look up at empty sky 'cause it's a reflection of who you are
Fourteen, fifteen, missing in the clouds and stars

And you try the things you always wanted to
Fuck up and say you'll never do
That thing again
But you're gonna do it anyway
Make the friends you know won't stay
Create the nights you don't want to forget
'cause you get old
And you get cold
And all the shit piles up leaving stories all untold
'cause nobody wants to listen to some bitter jaded ass
With fantasies of arson from his grade nine science class
Or sophomore year in auto shop where I learned that brotherhood
Has zero vulnerability or caring like it really should
Or junior year the day that I told ash that I can't be friends anymore
I cried all day, fucking bursting through the door

Fourteen, fifteen
Fuck, I'm missing
Lost in thought, I'm never listening
Won't make it to seventeen
It's time to earn my angel wings