The Flower by Eyeque Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Rose up again this morning, in a shitty mood
Not laothing in self mourning, what’s new
Went to school again, some dementra thought he could out do my doing
Pushed into a corner and gave a scorning
You look at me again and this’ll be your last warning
Went to class, the teacher gave us a task observe our bring ups
It’s not apparent that they’re absent, dad’s a bum, mom’s a slut, gotta pay rent
How am I to know how far that bar went?
Come home to screaming and yelling for no reason, every day my room I got sent
Not by them but I told myself it’d be better than treason
My mind tried to bend
The seed had been planted
Every day a test for the end, I gotta hand it
Yet, nothing can manage
[Verse 2]
Next day, shit starts the same
It’s hard to maintain my strength, too much happens to me
Hard to play the life game, hard to ride, I don’t know if I can aim
For the goal, to make it through, What do I have to do?
I hear it all, cracker you lame, you smell like shit, broke, who the hell are you?
I was turned down like a loan for a new car
I’m not old enough for the bar, yet too old for the toys and cards
Maybe some magic could help me cope it
I keep them tight though, my lips, I don’t fall for tricks
I’m tired of this shit, I’m tired of them, tired of the fighting at home, everyone a fucking tick
Sucking my blood just to get a lick, of what power feels like, just a bit
I go home, find where my dad hides the grip
Under the bed in a box, with the locks, 1911, funny how that’s the code to unload the top
Shit, there’s no ammo, I can’t gotta find them yo
Maybe they’re next to the stuffed Elmo
Jackpot, they’re in the belly, I guess the white isn’t the only hidden thing in this house
I really want an out, but is this really what I’m about?
Screw it, it’s too late now…
Walk out the door, I’m pretty sure dad just threw mom on the floor
Don’t look back, it’ll make the pain worse, I can’t take the horror
Drive my ten speed to the dock, it was just down the block
Had to get over some rocks, Stan played in my mental boombox
I’m not like him though, I’m not obsessed with a man
I’m obsessed with escaping this sin, I don’t want to deal with this again
Finally got to the wood place, my mind is racing, I think I’ve been laced
Can’t get it placed, I’m too shook to pace
It’s too damn late to turn back the race
Stand at the end of the wood like I was Em, the whole lake is shady
My vision become dazed and hazy, just let it fly baby, put the fertilizer on your weed
I put the barrel on my temple and attempted to let it go freely…
Hear me
[Verse 3]
I can’t do it, if I give in my point has been clued in
I can’t prove it, the kids who kicked me, win
I can’t loose this, I won’t ever get it again
Throw the devil’s work in the lake then
Thought about when I was young and what mom was bakin
Love, I can’t let her down, she’s my only friend
Teens don’t love me, that girl didn’t, my dad, nah, she did when
No one else did or ever will, but that’s all I need, my only thrill
Rode home, no one noticed I left, the blue and red flashed all over the hood
I couldn’t have understood at first, found my mom and it become clear
The spear had been cut off, my dad was cuffed and heading to the rough life
My eyes, my mind, my life all changed right there, I was no longer bare
All I could do was stare, My cranium became an empty lair
My life began anew because the rose was finally allowed to bloom
Rose up again this morning, in a shitty mood
Not laothing in self mourning, what’s new
Went to school again, some dementra thought he could out do my doing
Pushed into a corner and gave a scorning
You look at me again and this’ll be your last warning
Went to class, the teacher gave us a task observe our bring ups
It’s not apparent that they’re absent, dad’s a bum, mom’s a slut, gotta pay rent
How am I to know how far that bar went?
Come home to screaming and yelling for no reason, every day my room I got sent
Not by them but I told myself it’d be better than treason
My mind tried to bend
The seed had been planted
Every day a test for the end, I gotta hand it
Yet, nothing can manage
[Verse 2]
Next day, shit starts the same
It’s hard to maintain my strength, too much happens to me
Hard to play the life game, hard to ride, I don’t know if I can aim
For the goal, to make it through, What do I have to do?
I hear it all, cracker you lame, you smell like shit, broke, who the hell are you?
I was turned down like a loan for a new car
I’m not old enough for the bar, yet too old for the toys and cards
Maybe some magic could help me cope it
I keep them tight though, my lips, I don’t fall for tricks
I’m tired of this shit, I’m tired of them, tired of the fighting at home, everyone a fucking tick
Sucking my blood just to get a lick, of what power feels like, just a bit
I go home, find where my dad hides the grip
Under the bed in a box, with the locks, 1911, funny how that’s the code to unload the top
Shit, there’s no ammo, I can’t gotta find them yo
Maybe they’re next to the stuffed Elmo
Jackpot, they’re in the belly, I guess the white isn’t the only hidden thing in this house
I really want an out, but is this really what I’m about?
Screw it, it’s too late now…
Walk out the door, I’m pretty sure dad just threw mom on the floor
Don’t look back, it’ll make the pain worse, I can’t take the horror
Drive my ten speed to the dock, it was just down the block
Had to get over some rocks, Stan played in my mental boombox
I’m not like him though, I’m not obsessed with a man
I’m obsessed with escaping this sin, I don’t want to deal with this again
Finally got to the wood place, my mind is racing, I think I’ve been laced
Can’t get it placed, I’m too shook to pace
It’s too damn late to turn back the race
Stand at the end of the wood like I was Em, the whole lake is shady
My vision become dazed and hazy, just let it fly baby, put the fertilizer on your weed
I put the barrel on my temple and attempted to let it go freely…
Hear me
[Verse 3]
I can’t do it, if I give in my point has been clued in
I can’t prove it, the kids who kicked me, win
I can’t loose this, I won’t ever get it again
Throw the devil’s work in the lake then
Thought about when I was young and what mom was bakin
Love, I can’t let her down, she’s my only friend
Teens don’t love me, that girl didn’t, my dad, nah, she did when
No one else did or ever will, but that’s all I need, my only thrill
Rode home, no one noticed I left, the blue and red flashed all over the hood
I couldn’t have understood at first, found my mom and it become clear
The spear had been cut off, my dad was cuffed and heading to the rough life
My eyes, my mind, my life all changed right there, I was no longer bare
All I could do was stare, My cranium became an empty lair
My life began anew because the rose was finally allowed to bloom