Complex by Eyeque Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I cry myself to sleep
Other nights I try not to breathe
What happens if I leave?
Nothin, the light's will still flicker in the street
I just need a time machine
I’m not trying to start shit
Just trying to fix up this apartment
I can't live with this complex conscious
I'm nauseous yet cautious
Not doing this for the wealth
I’m more involved in fixing my health
Oh well, this isn't where I imagined myself
I never could've pictured this hell
Shit's been tough lately
I'm in a mode of self doubting but I can't let my writing get lazy
Damn shit really fades me
Maybe, this is how it's supposed to be
Life's not a bitch, it’s a scar
That reminds you of who you are
Which ever you make it, leaves you raw
Strips everything away except dust like an old guitar
[Hook]
When I needed someone there
All I got was a glossed over glare
When I needed someone there
All I got was a glossed over stare
[Verse 2]
I’m sick of these bubbly individuals acting like everything's lovely
It’s deceitful, how when you're needful, people aren't so loving There was someone that I thought was there for me
Thought we had that perfect unity
Thought life was finally complete
Had it all together
No matter the weather
Then the hurricane hit and there was no love letter
Not even a call, I can't stand no matter
My gray matter started darkening
Death’s knife keeps sharpening
My life's not worth shit
I plead the fifth
I cry myself to sleep
Other nights I try not to breathe
What happens if I leave?
Nothin, the light's will still flicker in the street
I just need a time machine
I’m not trying to start shit
Just trying to fix up this apartment
I can't live with this complex conscious
I'm nauseous yet cautious
Not doing this for the wealth
I’m more involved in fixing my health
Oh well, this isn't where I imagined myself
I never could've pictured this hell
Shit's been tough lately
I'm in a mode of self doubting but I can't let my writing get lazy
Damn shit really fades me
Maybe, this is how it's supposed to be
Life's not a bitch, it’s a scar
That reminds you of who you are
Which ever you make it, leaves you raw
Strips everything away except dust like an old guitar
[Hook]
When I needed someone there
All I got was a glossed over glare
When I needed someone there
All I got was a glossed over stare
[Verse 2]
I’m sick of these bubbly individuals acting like everything's lovely
It’s deceitful, how when you're needful, people aren't so loving There was someone that I thought was there for me
Thought we had that perfect unity
Thought life was finally complete
Had it all together
No matter the weather
Then the hurricane hit and there was no love letter
Not even a call, I can't stand no matter
My gray matter started darkening
Death’s knife keeps sharpening
My life's not worth shit
I plead the fifth