Malediction by Extortionist Lyrics

Every day was a bet that I made against my own life
Gambling with death, waiting for the day that I'll never wake up again
Swallowed everything that stood in my way
Just to relieve myself of the pain
For just a moment of escape
Until my eyes faded to black and I couldn't see straight

I gave up my worth
Tossed my morals in the dirt just to forget every time i've been hurt
But it only made everything worse
This addiction is a curse

I won't deny that this addiction was my choice
But now I find myself wishing i was blind
So that I would have an excuse as to why
I can't look my.. I can't look my own mother in her eyes

I can't look my own mother in her eyes

Surround yourself with these demons
The start of the census
Forget this life and escape
Relapse to a familiar plane
Return to regression
Is this substance a god-send?
Alive, but cannot feel the pain

Is this substance a god-send?

My consciousness has fallen behind
Look into my eyes
I'm everything I once despised
No I'm drowning in these fucking cold sweats
Let my eyes fade to black and let darkness commence

Let my eyes fade to black