Pushed Me Away by Expy Lyrics
[Verse]
Since a kid, the church was prominent
Survived a life threatening surgery, accomplished it
And it's believed it was under God's providence
My grandma prayed for a sign and she got the shit
So I'm a miracle kid
I wore it proud upon my skin like a flag on a ship
But when I hit about 13, everything switched
I started asking all these questions that I couldn't resist
I fucked up, opened up and I told my damn family
They went fuckin' manic and leaped, tried rehabbing me
But all that shit did was alienate
I didn't say I was an atheist, but is that okay?
Said I was stuck in the middle, they pushed me into the frame
Best of intentions, but all it did was damage my brain
Gotta bury all these demons I felt
Can't even be myself without gettin' fuckin' pelted
Compared to the previous generation
I think that I'm doin' good minus the education
But fuck, in old days, I only wanted to pray
Then self-doubt set in and started pullin' the fray
I think the church is what made what I am today
I saw so many angry faces that I had to stray
And shit, yo, it's far from my mom's fault
She only wants her son present up in God's walk
I just wish that I could be accepted
Without any inch or shred of rejection
Wish I could talk how I talk so you see that it's me
And not put this fuckin' front on to refrain from a scene
Someday, I could have a change of heart, and I may
But it's ironic that the strongest faith pushed me away
[Outro]
Someday, I could have a change of heart, and I may
But it's ironic that the strongest faith pushed me away, yeah
Since a kid, the church was prominent
Survived a life threatening surgery, accomplished it
And it's believed it was under God's providence
My grandma prayed for a sign and she got the shit
So I'm a miracle kid
I wore it proud upon my skin like a flag on a ship
But when I hit about 13, everything switched
I started asking all these questions that I couldn't resist
I fucked up, opened up and I told my damn family
They went fuckin' manic and leaped, tried rehabbing me
But all that shit did was alienate
I didn't say I was an atheist, but is that okay?
Said I was stuck in the middle, they pushed me into the frame
Best of intentions, but all it did was damage my brain
Gotta bury all these demons I felt
Can't even be myself without gettin' fuckin' pelted
Compared to the previous generation
I think that I'm doin' good minus the education
But fuck, in old days, I only wanted to pray
Then self-doubt set in and started pullin' the fray
I think the church is what made what I am today
I saw so many angry faces that I had to stray
And shit, yo, it's far from my mom's fault
She only wants her son present up in God's walk
I just wish that I could be accepted
Without any inch or shred of rejection
Wish I could talk how I talk so you see that it's me
And not put this fuckin' front on to refrain from a scene
Someday, I could have a change of heart, and I may
But it's ironic that the strongest faith pushed me away
[Outro]
Someday, I could have a change of heart, and I may
But it's ironic that the strongest faith pushed me away, yeah