PIER by Executive Tire Swing Club Lyrics
I'm the last judgement I've been running from
I'm the last in the room when everybody's gone home
I'm the last one left when all's said and done
And I'd rather have to satisfy anybody else but myself
Don't even know what I deserve
I was in this truck stop bathroom trying to measure my worth
Is it my finest highlights and some lessons I've learned
Or the people who'll see me as the reason they hurt?
I crashed at your apartment I dashed over the bridge and
I lashed out at my mother for asking me to live and
I blacked out in my madness and that I can't forgive and
I cashed out my amends, but still I don't think I'm it
And that's a motherfucker, oh that's a narcissist
Like perfect is the only way worth it to exist like
Learning isn't valued more than palatable sin, so
I tally up these bad values till I'm valid to win
I floundering like a flounder, I'm gasping let me in
I'm trash but that's just that and I'm asking for a chance and
I grabbed the medication, I grasped at new ideals and
I practice meditation, I basked in how feels
But I'm scared
I'm the last judgement I've been running from
I'm the last in the room when everybody's gone home
I'm the last one left when all's said and done
And I'd rather have to satisfy anybody else but myself
I don't want you knowing my inheritance
My brokenness is fucking embarrassing
So fucking arrogant, should’ve left my cerebellum in Maryland
It's unbearable, I'm spiraling, watching violent criminals in psychiatry and
Making unfair comparisons
Maybe fair enough, I'm like a ferris wheel, roundabout myself
Get scared of it, I'm made of scary stuff
Folded in like origami swans and heron's n them
I'm paper thin, a paper cut would be perilous
I'm hanging on, I'm barreling over the falls
I'm raising hellfire on myself for my failures and if I don't forgive then I don't forget at all
If I forget, I'm living in a fog
If I forget then I'm cast out to the dunes
But if you're the ones that I love then I'll see you very soon
My name is JC Foster I'm taking it to the moon!
I'm the last in the room when everybody's gone home
I'm the last one left when all's said and done
And I'd rather have to satisfy anybody else but myself
Don't even know what I deserve
I was in this truck stop bathroom trying to measure my worth
Is it my finest highlights and some lessons I've learned
Or the people who'll see me as the reason they hurt?
I crashed at your apartment I dashed over the bridge and
I lashed out at my mother for asking me to live and
I blacked out in my madness and that I can't forgive and
I cashed out my amends, but still I don't think I'm it
And that's a motherfucker, oh that's a narcissist
Like perfect is the only way worth it to exist like
Learning isn't valued more than palatable sin, so
I tally up these bad values till I'm valid to win
I floundering like a flounder, I'm gasping let me in
I'm trash but that's just that and I'm asking for a chance and
I grabbed the medication, I grasped at new ideals and
I practice meditation, I basked in how feels
But I'm scared
I'm the last judgement I've been running from
I'm the last in the room when everybody's gone home
I'm the last one left when all's said and done
And I'd rather have to satisfy anybody else but myself
I don't want you knowing my inheritance
My brokenness is fucking embarrassing
So fucking arrogant, should’ve left my cerebellum in Maryland
It's unbearable, I'm spiraling, watching violent criminals in psychiatry and
Making unfair comparisons
Maybe fair enough, I'm like a ferris wheel, roundabout myself
Get scared of it, I'm made of scary stuff
Folded in like origami swans and heron's n them
I'm paper thin, a paper cut would be perilous
I'm hanging on, I'm barreling over the falls
I'm raising hellfire on myself for my failures and if I don't forgive then I don't forget at all
If I forget, I'm living in a fog
If I forget then I'm cast out to the dunes
But if you're the ones that I love then I'll see you very soon
My name is JC Foster I'm taking it to the moon!