Monster by Evynne Hollens Lyrics

It's finally come, come to knock down my door
I can't hide this time like I hid before
The storm is awake, the danger is real
My time's running out -- don't feel, don't feel

"Fear will be our enemy
And death its consequence"
That's what they once said to me
And it's starting to make sense
All this pain, all this fear began because of me
Is the thing they see, the thing I have to be?

A monster, were they right?
Has the dark in me finally come to light?
Am I a monster full of rage?
Nowhere to go but on a rampage?
Or am I just a monster in a cage?

What do I do?
No time for crying now
I've started this storm
Gotta stop it somehow
Do I keep on running?
How far do I have to go?
And will that take the storm away
Or only make it grow?

I'm making my world colder
How long can it survive?
Is everyone in danger
As long as I'm alive?

Was I a monster from the start?
How did I end up with this frozen heart?
Bringing destruction to the stage
Caught in a war that I never meant to wage

Father, you know what's best for me
If I die, will they be free?
Mother, what if after I'm gone
The cold gets colder and the storm rages on?

No!
I have to stay alive to fix what I've done
Save the world from myself
And bring back the sun

If I'm a monster then it's true
There's only one thing that's left for me to do
But before I fade to white
I'll do all that I can to make things right
I cannot be a monster
I will not be a monster
Not tonight