Half-Cocked by Ethel Cain Lyrics

[Verse]
Sunday morning and I’m wasted
Had too much to drink again
Preacher’s saying God will save me
If God is real, he’s a fucking bitch
Tell my baby that I love her, but right now mama’s gotta go
I didn’t ask to be this crazy, but since we’re here, I’ll give them a show
Always run from the best of them, but I’ll fall for a piece of shit
Half-cocked cause he’s not a big boy
And I don’t wanna know that half of him
If you try to hurt me, I won’t stop you
But there’s something you should know
It’s that my daddy’s fucking crazy
And always ready to blow
The first boy I ever loved was a brother I never had
I thought with him, maybe I’d make it
Maybe it’d be half as bad
Spеnt my nights under the covers
Just wishing hе was there
Draw his portrait in my diary
Just to hold when I got scared
Now I’m fucked up and I’m nasty
But they say I make it look good
I don’t do what my mama told me
I just do what my mama would
I don’t starve cause I hate my body
I just starve cause I’m fucking broke
And on my mama, I hate this country
America is a fucking joke
What’s gonna scare me when I’ve seen it all
Been too sick to walk so I had to crawl
When you leave, turn off the light
I leave my door open at night
To be strung out and still be stone cold
To reach the end but never close to old
I don’t feel good but I don’t wanna cry
If I can’t live, can I just fucking die?