Growing Pains by Ethel Cain Lyrics

Tear-stained carpet, white-knuckled grip
I can’t forget him or forgive what he did
I thought I loved you, but I can’t take another hit
It’s only been six weeks and I’m already like this

You took me out and taught me how to skate
With blood on my knees, I told you I would be ok
But you knew nothing’s that easy
So you said yes when I asked you to stay
'Cause for the first time in a long time
I don’t want you to go away

I hate that I can’t love you
But I’m just in the way
But you say I won’t be here forever
And you’ll wait as long as it takes

Steal away to meet you when the moon is full
Wearing shoes that don't even fit me
Hoping you'll think I look cool
I hope you do
I hope you know that I think you look fucking cool
Staying up to see you when you get off of work
But you leave without touching me
And you don't know just how bad it hurts
When I dreamed for weeks of you being my first

I hate that I can’t love you
But I’m just in the way
But you say I won’t be here forever
And you’ll wait as long as it takes