Apologetiparoxysm by Escape from the ZOO Lyrics

My shell is present but
My minds light years away
I need a substance to secure my anchor
I dig and dig until I've dug myself a grave
Where did it come from
This newfangled anger
This persistent unfounded
Annoyance is taking it's toll
Any semblance of calm has corroded
A psyche so sick and a soul so much sicker
Delusion my only reprieve
Listless callous numb
Despondency's the flavor of the day

A rapid shift in my
Temperaments led me to sink
To a depth of dejection at which
I can't think through the mire malign
In my mind I meander and pray that
I stumble across some place safe
But I won't, I'll remain in this prison
Reinforce the cell walls and fire upon any
Who try to help im a toxin too
Comfortable covered in quills
Listless callous numb
Despondency's the flavor of the day

Please forgive me I know I'm
A nightmare and not myself
I just can't shake this feeling
Of impending doom and that
Weight on my mental healths
Left me so detached
With every respite from this odd
Suspension I'm trapped in
I see all the pain that I've caused and it
Kills me inside so I put up a wall
Further exacerbating the problems
And still entertaining this
Listless callous numb