What by Envy Black Lyrics
[INTRO]
Last night I thought about you
And how the figure in the mirror ain't the same without you
But I grit my teeth and smile, hoping we can reconcile but
I can't help feeling doubtful
[VERSE 1]
But I can't help feeling doubtful
That feeling's pretty powerful
And I could use an ounce of green to get me through these mouthfuls of gut-spilling
Spill my thoughts into this song cause I can't say 'em to your face
It's kinda funny, you weren't wrong
I guess I am a pussy
And I'm a lot of things
Like, I'm still that selfish nigga who just wished that you still loved him like you used to
I'm that motherfucker who's still getting used to being stuck in the same place for 2 years straight
Call it a rut or something
Something like being up Shit Creek but now my rudder's broken
I'm fucking drowning in a body of my own emotions
Cause I can't swim, I'm sinking deeper in this ocean of despair, I'm losing focus
Vision's losing focus through my rose-tinted shades, I
See the past today, I
Know that it don't help me grow, but I can't look away
You can say that it's okay but it ain't ever been that way inside my head since you left me on that day
It's the opposite of sane
[HOOK]
Baby, take a break
You've been running through my head all day
When I'm searching for my soul the only thing that seems to turn up is your face
You are free to live your life, but you won't ever leave this place
[VERSE 2]
And even if you'll hate me, writing this will liberate me
I've been locked on chains, always whipped, girl thats my inner pain
I've been like a slave to my thoughts, never dissipated
I remember every detail back when we were dating
Tequila in a Sonic slushie, that's how all this started
You were chasing clouds and I was seeing stars
Then we fall, in the heat of the moment, in the heat of the Sting
In this thing called “Like” but there was something more to it
And you know that, we both did
Crushing from afar, but our nerves had us bested
Till you took the words put my mouth and the weight off my chest
When you told me how you felt, girl, that night was the best
That I had in a while, you always made me smile
And if you need an inch I'll give a mile in a heartbeat, you know that
And I pray there ain't a day I never show that
When I'm digging through my memories like a throwback, I'll still be looking out for you
[BRIDGE]
Baby, take a break
You've been running through my head all day
When I'm searching for my soul the only thing that seems to turn up is your face
You are free to live your life, but you won't ever leave this place
Said you'll never leave this place
Train of Thought off the rails all day
When I'm tryna find my way I'm never stopping till I'm hitting Memory Lane
You are free to live your life, but you won't ever leave this place
[OUTRO]
“If you love something then let it go” but that depends
See, I can do that physically but my heart's on the fence and that's a conflict of the self that never ends
Cause there's a consequence to falling for your best friend
Last night I thought about you
And how the figure in the mirror ain't the same without you
But I grit my teeth and smile, hoping we can reconcile but
I can't help feeling doubtful
[VERSE 1]
But I can't help feeling doubtful
That feeling's pretty powerful
And I could use an ounce of green to get me through these mouthfuls of gut-spilling
Spill my thoughts into this song cause I can't say 'em to your face
It's kinda funny, you weren't wrong
I guess I am a pussy
And I'm a lot of things
Like, I'm still that selfish nigga who just wished that you still loved him like you used to
I'm that motherfucker who's still getting used to being stuck in the same place for 2 years straight
Call it a rut or something
Something like being up Shit Creek but now my rudder's broken
I'm fucking drowning in a body of my own emotions
Cause I can't swim, I'm sinking deeper in this ocean of despair, I'm losing focus
Vision's losing focus through my rose-tinted shades, I
See the past today, I
Know that it don't help me grow, but I can't look away
You can say that it's okay but it ain't ever been that way inside my head since you left me on that day
It's the opposite of sane
[HOOK]
Baby, take a break
You've been running through my head all day
When I'm searching for my soul the only thing that seems to turn up is your face
You are free to live your life, but you won't ever leave this place
[VERSE 2]
And even if you'll hate me, writing this will liberate me
I've been locked on chains, always whipped, girl thats my inner pain
I've been like a slave to my thoughts, never dissipated
I remember every detail back when we were dating
Tequila in a Sonic slushie, that's how all this started
You were chasing clouds and I was seeing stars
Then we fall, in the heat of the moment, in the heat of the Sting
In this thing called “Like” but there was something more to it
And you know that, we both did
Crushing from afar, but our nerves had us bested
Till you took the words put my mouth and the weight off my chest
When you told me how you felt, girl, that night was the best
That I had in a while, you always made me smile
And if you need an inch I'll give a mile in a heartbeat, you know that
And I pray there ain't a day I never show that
When I'm digging through my memories like a throwback, I'll still be looking out for you
[BRIDGE]
Baby, take a break
You've been running through my head all day
When I'm searching for my soul the only thing that seems to turn up is your face
You are free to live your life, but you won't ever leave this place
Said you'll never leave this place
Train of Thought off the rails all day
When I'm tryna find my way I'm never stopping till I'm hitting Memory Lane
You are free to live your life, but you won't ever leave this place
[OUTRO]
“If you love something then let it go” but that depends
See, I can do that physically but my heart's on the fence and that's a conflict of the self that never ends
Cause there's a consequence to falling for your best friend