In my head by Enkay47 Lyrics
If today was your last day
And if this was your last breath
Would you accept where you’ve gotten in life
Or just be forgotten like past tense
I feel like I’m on a bad stretch
If I’m being honest I’m mad stressed
I been looking for the answers
I just wish I had the access
Ever since I was a kid I knew that I was different
Significant wasn’t significant
I finished school and I got my certificate
I learned to live with the shit that I’ve done
And no I’ll never tell anybody right up
Until the day I die and my body’s dried up and
When I’m in the sky and I’m being judged
By God or whatever, don’t know what the fuck
Is after my death
Am I dramatic? I guess
I deal with manic depression
It’s automatic I’m mad
Maybe it’s all in my head
Maybe it’s not, but again
I’ve been looking for myself
In some places that I swear to God that I’ve been
I just forgot 'em again
It’s probably trauma again
It’s honestly
Maybe it’s all in my head
I’m caught on narcotics again
I’m telling my mom that I’ve been
Fine and I’m doing okay
And the music I’m making is working
And she’s telling me I deserve it
My family’s proud until they pull the curtain
Right off of my body exposing the surface
I know for certain
That my life is going in circles and
Here we go again
I feel like I’ve been here before
I let a lot of people that’ll hurt me just
Walk in my home like it’s missing the door
I haven’t been in this position before
I’m rich but I’m poor
I do whatever I want for a living
But there’s a whole lotta shit I can’t afford
If I couldn’t record then I’d blow out my brains on the floor (wait)
I’ve gotta switch the mind state
Who the fuck are you to think that you define if I’m great
If I create thoughts in my mind
Then I make
Everything you’re looking at right now
How am I fake
If I take
Everything inside of my brain
And put it on a plate right now with my steak
Then I slayed all the bad thoughts in my way
I’m the one that chooses the path that I take
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my head
When the light is gone
Chose my wrong
And I went all in
Couldn’t change my mind
Blame my pride
I'm still holding
Onto wasted time
Escape my mind
I’m so cold inside
When I close my eyes
And I face inside
I just know that I
Am never going back to the way that I was
Never going back to the way that I was
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
And if this was your last breath
Would you accept where you’ve gotten in life
Or just be forgotten like past tense
I feel like I’m on a bad stretch
If I’m being honest I’m mad stressed
I been looking for the answers
I just wish I had the access
Ever since I was a kid I knew that I was different
Significant wasn’t significant
I finished school and I got my certificate
I learned to live with the shit that I’ve done
And no I’ll never tell anybody right up
Until the day I die and my body’s dried up and
When I’m in the sky and I’m being judged
By God or whatever, don’t know what the fuck
Is after my death
Am I dramatic? I guess
I deal with manic depression
It’s automatic I’m mad
Maybe it’s all in my head
Maybe it’s not, but again
I’ve been looking for myself
In some places that I swear to God that I’ve been
I just forgot 'em again
It’s probably trauma again
It’s honestly
Maybe it’s all in my head
I’m caught on narcotics again
I’m telling my mom that I’ve been
Fine and I’m doing okay
And the music I’m making is working
And she’s telling me I deserve it
My family’s proud until they pull the curtain
Right off of my body exposing the surface
I know for certain
That my life is going in circles and
Here we go again
I feel like I’ve been here before
I let a lot of people that’ll hurt me just
Walk in my home like it’s missing the door
I haven’t been in this position before
I’m rich but I’m poor
I do whatever I want for a living
But there’s a whole lotta shit I can’t afford
If I couldn’t record then I’d blow out my brains on the floor (wait)
I’ve gotta switch the mind state
Who the fuck are you to think that you define if I’m great
If I create thoughts in my mind
Then I make
Everything you’re looking at right now
How am I fake
If I take
Everything inside of my brain
And put it on a plate right now with my steak
Then I slayed all the bad thoughts in my way
I’m the one that chooses the path that I take
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my head
When the light is gone
Chose my wrong
And I went all in
Couldn’t change my mind
Blame my pride
I'm still holding
Onto wasted time
Escape my mind
I’m so cold inside
When I close my eyes
And I face inside
I just know that I
Am never going back to the way that I was
Never going back to the way that I was
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
Maybe it’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head
It’s all in my head