Ninety-Three by End This Year Lyrics

I fucking hate you
Remember the day that you
Heard you were my dad
I bet you froze up
Throwing beers back
Then got up and left
The fact that you ran out on me
Has made me feel like I've been trying to be exactly what you were supposed to be teaching me
When I would ask

The family that you left
Grows stronger with every breath
And the day you’ll need us most
It'll be too fucking late
My mom was my dad
And the strength that I have
Will be more than you'll ever understand

How can I have so much hate for someone I don’t know
You don't deserve my attention
And now I'm stuck with the thought of what if
And it's leaving me with all these mixed emotions
I grew up twenty one years later
Never knowing the word dad

I don't know whether to feel mad
I don't know whether to be depressed
I thought you'd be there in the end
I thought you would have come to your senses

There'll be nothing that you could teach me
So don’t bother even trying
I’m acknowledging your existence
In my lyrics for the moment

So i can get the point through your head
On how all of this could've been different
But i’ll leave you buried deep
Like you did with me in '93

I'll acknowledge your existence
For this moment
I'll leave you buried deep
In ninety-three