Going Thru It Intro by End Termino Lyrics

I was goin' through it
I was goin' through it
I was goin' through it

I've been thinking about the good (I've been thinking about the good)
I've been writing about the remainder
If I feel need for pain (If I feel need for pain)
You're on retainer
I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)
I was goin' through it
Let me explain, yeah
I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)
I was goin' through it
Let me explain, yeah

She was holding me down
Started with the highs
The king wore his crown
Then she held me down
She don't want me around
Can't breathe
Feel like I drowned
Everything is fallin' around me
Feel like collapsing
No solution to the pain
Anxiety is taxing
Trying to pretend everything's alright
In reality for air I'm just gasping
No the way it went down just ain't right
I've been trying to reach your phone all damn night
Begging to let me fix this situation
Making promises it'll be alright

I've been thinking about the good (I've been thinking about the good)
I've been writing about the remainder
If I feel need for pain (If I feel need for pain)
You're on retainer
I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)
I was goin' through it
Let me explain, yeah
I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)
I was goin' through it
Let me explain, yeah

From that point on it was never the same
She clocked out and occasionally in again
She wanted me on her own time
But never all the time because she didn’t wanna have to depend

We can't even be friends
I can't go on
Feel like my heart's broken
I don't even need amends
Never be that right moment
Never felt hatred
'Til that time, place, and when
So much betrayal
What I said isn't what I meant
She just responds, "If you say so"
Ducking from her messages
Really need to lay low
Before I go off in detail
She fills my mind up with unwanted thoughts
False hope as too much is lost
Time has struck twelve
It's come and gone
Can't tell you how I've felt
Still embracing the fall
I keep swaying if I ever got enough
I slip up with a text
Tell her tonight she in luck
Hit me up in case she think she want to (Ugh)

I've been thinking about the good (I've been thinking about the good)
I've been writing about the remainder
If I feel need for pain (If I feel need for pain)
You're on retainer
I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)
I was goin' through it
Let me explain, yeah
I was goin' through it (I was goin' through it)
I was goin' through it
Let me explain, yeah

They say let it all pass
Time will tell all
Mind trapped in a cell
Feels like jail
Anger got the best of me
Feel like I failed
Pushing her in messages
Just exhale
Spazzing all caps
"What the fuck do you mean?"
Drinking too much
Can't see clearly
No filter
Say all that I'm thinking
Feel great off my chest
Until the next morning
Memory is hazy at the very best
No matter which way I turn
Mind never turns to rest
She been making me go through some things
I only moved past when I saw nothing left

I don't even know where the fuck to begin
How do I even explain
Words with the wind
No way to put it all into a lens
Just enough to explain
I could never forgive
I don't even know how the fuck to live
I don't even know what the fuck I got to tell you 'cause I can't speak fluent